Johanna & Finnick: It Didn't End Like That

Chapter 16

Finnick's POV

Feeling Johanna's lips against mine makes me freeze. I can't move. She'll know I'm awake. But oh my fucking Christ, this is unbelievable. 

She's kissing me.

Johanna Mason is really kissing me. 

Her lips taste like booze and honey. It's a bittersweet mixture that makes me want to kiss her back for more. I've never felt this way. Annie never made me feel like this. Fuck... Annie.

Johanna leans out. I can feel her short breaths against my neck. In just a few minutes her soft inhales and exhales fill the room, revealing she's back asleep.

I'm wide awake now. She kissed me? What does this mean? Why did she kiss me? Does she like me? Oh shit... is it love?

I shake my head with confusion. She just did the best/worst thing possible. Maybe she's still a bit drunk. That possibility makes me feel sick. I really want to know why she did that. Telling her I know what she did though will just fuck shit up though. That means I have to pretend for now on that this never happened.

Great.

Her loud snores stop my endless loop of thoughts. I almost forgot that she snored in her sleep. I chuckle into my pillow so she won't wake up. I softly kiss her cheek, letting it linger, and then fall back to sleep.

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"OH COME ON!"

My head shoots up like a rocket, banging onto the headboard of the bead. "Shit," I mutter. A throbbing pain attacks the back of my head. And it was finally starting to feel back to normal...

I look up at Johanna. She's glaring at the clock, then back at me. I stare at her. What's she even doing?

"We've been asleep for hours. IT'S ALREADY THURSDAY!" She points at the clock. Shit. We've slept into Thursday. Now it's 10:30 AM.

"We had a hangover," I point out. "This is normal. I've done this dozens of times when I worked for that prostitution shit Snow made me do."

Johanna winces when I say that. "Fuck him," she mutters. "Anyways. We really need to call Katniss later. I'm dead hungry. Like the kind where you could die from starvation. Come on. Let's get water and eat the rest of the stuff we bought at the bakery."

We make our way downstairs slowly like snails. I still feel like shit. Even after that endless nap which transformed into hibernation. I sit down in the kitchen and start digging into the cake along with Johanna.

We're shoveling it down like it's our first meal in centuries. "Water," Johanna mouths at me, her mouth full of sweets. I nod my head and pour two glasses of ice water. I slide it across to her and she nods a thank you to me. Moments later the water and food is gone.

"Wow," I say, sitting back on the couch. We moved into the living room to watch the highlights on Capitol TV.

"I feel like we're preparing for some winter hibernation," Johanna says. "I've never been that hungry and never this full before."

"You can say that again..."

The TV interrupts our conversation. We watch the highlights from all of the districts. The only problems that have been happening is that there was a small accident in District Seven. A child got killed by a falling tree. The story makes me feel sick.

My thoughts drift off to last night. Johanna kissed me. I look over at her. God, she is the most beautiful person in the entire universe. You could never get tired of looking at her. She watches the highlights, sighing at the sad parts and showing small smiles at the good news. After the war, even the smallest good news makes everyone smile with joy knowing we're all safe.

"It's really getting good now," Johanna says after the highlights are over. I turn off the TV. "Everything's turning out to be better than I expected." She smiles at the floor.

"Me too. It's going good." I smile back at her, even though she isn't looking at me.

My damned thoughts are still thinking about last night. I can't believe she kissed me. Regardless whether she was drunk or not, Johanna kissed me. And I was thankfully awake to know she did. Imagine if I was asleep and she...

"I miss home though." Her voice makes my thoughts stop. I look up at her. Johanna looks like she's going to cry. "I really miss Seven," she whispers.

An idea pops in my mind. "We could take a train there. You could go home and we could do anything you want, like go to a favorite childhood spot of yours or go to the lake you always talk about."

Her face lights up like a Christmas tree. "Are you serious?" 

I roll my eyes. "No. We're not going. I'm kidding Jo. We can head there in two days after our meeting with Katniss and a visit with some other friends."

Johanna scooches over to me on the couch and hugs me. I hug her back in shock, inhaling the smell of her hair. It's the smell of roses and lavenders. Annie and I bought her those body washes to use in the shower. It makes me feel great knowing she's showering and bathing properly now. Before it was awful...

"Thank you Finn," she whispers into my ear. It sends chills down my spine. "That sounds incredible."

"Really?"

"Really." She leans out, looking at me softly in the eyes. More flashbacks from yesterday fill my mind. The unexpected rush when her lips touched mine. The taste, electricity, love... I've never felt that way ever in my life.

"We'll start packing tomorrow. Maybe we could see Haymitch and Effie," I suggest.

"Yeah," Johanna agrees, looking out the window. Two birds are bathing in the bird bath. "It's been a while since we've seen them."