"Asthon Fletcher Irwin!"
The door of my room slams open. My mom comes trough and rips my duvet from my bed. I'm left in the cold.
I turn around, still a bit asleep and look at her through my half open eyes.
"Wake up!"
I feel myself dosing off again, i am just so damn tired.
"I SAID WAKE UP" she yells.
To say she's mad is an understatement. She's utterly furious.
I have opened my eyes completely, maybe i'm even a bit scared of her at the moment.
"What the hell, calm down. I am awake" i tell her, maybe a bit too pissed off.
"WHAT YOU ARE TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN. ARE YOU SERIOUS ASHTON. ARE YOU REALLY DOING THIS RIGHT NOW?!"
"I'm sorry"
"YOU'RE SORRY? YOU ARE SORRY?"
"Yeah mom I'm sorry"
"SORRY IS NOT ENOUGH. YOU MISSED A ENTIRE DAY OF SCHOOL AND YOU TELL ME TO CALM DOWN?! YOU ARE IN NO POSITION TO TELL ME SUCH THINGS BECAUSE YOU! MISSED! AN! ENTIRE! DAY OF SCHOOL!"
I cannot believe my ears.
"Mom i am really sorry okay? Just- i- i- i am sorry okay?"
"NO ASHTON I DON'T WANT YOUR SORRY. IT DOESN'T CHANGE ANYTHING"
"MOM!! STOP IT. YOU KNOW WHAT? I CAN'T DO IT! I HATE SCHOOL, THE PRESSURE IS TOO MUCH. AND YOU THINK IT HELPES IF YOU COME IN MY ROOM AND JUST YELL AT ME?! I KNOW I AM A FAILURE! I KNOW I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT! THERE IS NO REASON TO REMIND ME OF THAT! I REMIND MYSELF ENOUGH OF ALL THAT! Please, i don't need another reminder" i began furious but now i am crying.
There's a long silence between us.
"I don't think of you as a failure. I understand okay? It's okay honey" my mom says
i can't believe her?!
"NO STOP. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, YOU NEVER DID. YOU LOVED SCHOOL, YOU WERE THE BEST IN EVERY SUBJECT. DON'T SAY YOU UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU KNOW NOTHING!!"
"Ashton, baby. I'm sorry okay, i understand"
I quickly get out if bed I'm so sick of this. I need to get out of the house.
"STOP SAYING YOU UNDERSTAND. I HATE ALL OF THIS. I HATE BEING THE FAILURE." I just put on some random clothes that i picked up from the ground. "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND AND YOU NEVER WILL. I HATE BEING ALIVE BECAUSE YOU KNOW, I DON'T WANT TO BE! i want to die" i make my way out of my room and quickly skip of the stairs. I hear my mom after me.
"Ashton, com back! Ashton don't you dare to leave!"
I put on my shoes and pick my bag of the ground were i left it yesterday. And leave through the frontdoor. I run down the street as fast as i can.
"ASHTON COME BACK" i hear my mom scream.
But there's no way i'm going back there right now.
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life is never easy a.i
FanfictionAshton has a hard time in life, he's been through a lot. his parents aren't as understanding as they should be, they make him go to therapy. Ashton hates living, he gave up, but nonetheless he is still alive, for now at least..
