I'm trying to hold back my tears. But i am not strong enough, i am weak. Everybody knows it. I am so weak, life is to much for me. Life tears me apart. But why is my life so damn hard. Luke crossed the line, he took it too far.
In this moment i am a sobbing mess.
"What are you doing here on the ground?"
Oh god please no.
"Come ash" michael offered me his hand.
I am pretty heavy. I don't want him to feel that. It would be so awkward. I don't take his hand. I stand up myself. He grabs my hand and leads me outside. We sit in front of the school on the grass. I'm staring of into space while the tears are still streaming of my face.
"What's wrong?" Michael asks.
I don't answer him, what isn't wrong? I am alive, everything is wrong.
"I skipped my class for you, i care you can tell me"
"Life is what's wrong"
"I can tell there's more"
"Okay, Luke is a bitch"
"Luke just has a weird way of showing he cares about you"
"He doesn't care about me"
"He does"
"No, he told me to never stop trying suicide"
"I told you, he has a weird way of showing it"
"That is not a way of showing you care"
"He stares at you a lot. I see things like that. He is staring at you right now"
"What?" I'm kinda creeped out.
"Look" he nods his head to the clasrooms behind him. As i look over his schoulder and my eyes travel over the windows, i lock eyes with the one and only, Luke Hemmings. He is marked as a creep. I'm a little scared right now, i have to say.
"So, why did i found you crying on the floor?"
"Luke said i tried again, and wanted to go after Noelle in the middle of the class, everyone heared"
"Is it true?"
"No course not! I want to, but i can't. I can't do it" the tears still stream of my face i didn't know i had so much tears left.
"I'm here for you" michael says.
Michael is sweet. I like him. He's good for me he tries to help me. I leaned in and kissed him on the lips. He leans back and my eyes are open wide in shock. Shit.
"I-i'm sorry"
"No uh, it's, it's okay" he says.
I look over Michael's shoulder, Luke looks pissed off but when he sees that i am watching he quickly looks away.
"I'm still sorry, i shouldn't have done that"
"No i swear it's okay. It was just, i didn't expect something like that to happen"
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life is never easy a.i
FanfictionAshton has a hard time in life, he's been through a lot. his parents aren't as understanding as they should be, they make him go to therapy. Ashton hates living, he gave up, but nonetheless he is still alive, for now at least..
