life is never easy a.i

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My parents think I'm a failure it's pretty obvious, they don't want me. They don't want a misfit as their child, a lozer, a depressive antisocial failure as their son. They probably rather have no child at all.

I don't cry about it. I just think. Think about how they don't want me. About how they will never understand. About how no one but Michael ever seemed to care.

I haven't had my pills over some time i guess my parents forgot about it. I'm happy they forgot, i hate them. I don't want fake happiness and i don't even think they work, i am still sad and depressed when i take them so it's no use.

I stayed awake until 6 am. I couldn't sleep because i was too busy thinking. I came to the conclusion that i want to leave, i want to leave this world, but i don't know if i can. I don't know if i can do it.

After all that time thinking i finally fell asleep.

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I woke up already late for school, i had to hurry so i just picked some random clothes of the ground and skipped breakfast, it not like that is a huge thing or so i almost never eat anything and i have to lose some weight too so that's totally fine, i'm not hungry anyway.

As i walk into the hallway i look in the mirror, luckily my cheek showes nothing maybe it's a little more red/purple but i don't think it's noticeable. I see my dad in the corner of my eye, i question why he is here but i don't bother asking. I open the frontdoor and walk out.

"Hey, i will bring you" my dad spoke.

"Okay" i said. He never, ever brings me to school so there must be more to it then just kindness.

I hopp in the car and my dad drives off.

"Your mom and i made the decision that we are going to bring and take you from school everyday. So we know you will be going."

I knew there was more to it. I hate them. They take all my freedom away. What do they want me to become? Unhappy? Oh wait haha i already am.

When we arrive, i quickly get out and walk to the entrance. I take some books from my locker and directly walk to my class. The bell just went so i am still going to be on time.

I walk in and take a seat at the back of the room. I take out my notepad and begin to doodle.

Someone take's the empty seat next to me. I look up. Luke. He doesn't say anything. I really don't know what happened to him, he never ignores my presence. But i'm grateful for whatever it was that shut him up.

The bell rings.

I stand up and take my stuff with me. I hope this class wasn't important because i haven't heard one word of it, i was too caught up in my mind

I have that a lot lately. I'm so deep in thought that i can't concentrate on anything else.

I bump into someone, i look up to see Luke and his "gang"

I just went to walk away when Luke spoke.

"Why weren't you at school the last two days?"

I thought he finally stopped. Hell, i was wrong. How could i have ever thought that he would stop? Stupid me.

"Hello? Are you going to answer me?" Luke asks. And his so called friends laugh.

Ha ha hilarious.

"I, i" i didn't know what to say, i wasn't going to share my reason with him. What was i going to say, yeah i ran away from home because my parents were mad about me skipping school and they thought i was going to kill myself. It would be stupid.

"Jeez, what's wrong with you. Can't even answer a simple question"

"I, i was visiting m- my family?" It came out more as a question then an answer but i could care less. What if they know i lied, nothing. They still don't know the real reason and as long as they don't now, it's all good.

Luke glared at me. "Why lie ashton? You don't have to lie to us. We know you were probably planning your suicide or cutting or other things emo's like you do"

I even saw him in the park, he sat next to me in class and didn't say a word. I can't believe he said such things. I thought he changed, how could i have ever thought that he could change. I'm so stupid.

"So you lied? Is that what your silence means? That you planned your suicide or did you cut? I knew it" luke says.

"Leave him alone, Luke" michael says.

"Ah there you have the other emo. Well, you two make a cute pair. Ashton can stand up for himself if he wants to. You know michael, just because you are a year older doesn't mean i'm scared or impressed. In fact it only gets better for me. In class you aren't there to protect your boyfriend. Well that's just too bad, isn't it? Oh by the way, he is planning his suicide. Thought that maybe you would want to know" he says and walks away, with his group quickly following behind.

Wow, this is the most Luke has ever said, he didn't tell me to die but it was still kinda hard.

Michael just stands there, he looks at me and then to the ground.

I nod to myself. Alright.

I take Michael's hand in mine and lead him out of the hallway.