life is never easy a.i

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I wake up on a horrible sunday morning.

"Ash wake up, we are going out in a hour!" My dad yells from downstairs.

"Shit" i curse under my breath.

I quickly jump out of bed and make my way to my bathroom. i turn on the shower. I wait for the water to warm up and take off my boxers, i look in my mirror and sigh, I'll never be satisfied with how i look, i look away before i get to caught up in my reflection. When the water is warm enough i step inside the shower and let the water fall down on me. I sigh happily, i wish i could stand here all day. But i can't.

I shampoo my hair and wash it out. i stay under the water a little while longer, just enjoying how the drops run over my face, down my body and how i completely relax.

I open my eyes and turn off the water.

I wrap a towel around me and walk into my room without giving my mirror a glance, i don't want to see how ugly i am. I get some clothes out my closet and put them on.

I walk downstairs and see that my mom made me breakfast. I eat it, but can't enjoy the taste of all the calories that i am swallowing, when i'm finished i set my stuff on the counter. I see the pill container from the corner of my eye but pretend not to have seen it.

I turn around to leave the kitchen.

"Ashton, take your pills honey" my mom says from the doorway.

I let out a frustrated groan and turn around again. i take the pills out of sunday and fill my glass with water. i swallow them and make a gag face. i hate the taste of the medication. it makes me want to puke but i hold it in.

I skip up the stairs and make my way to my bathroom again to brush my teeth. once done i brush my hair.

I look at myself in the mirror and have no choice but to feel disgusted. It's just what i am. I am disgusted by my looks, why can't i at least look decent?

I shake the thoughts out my head as i hear my dad.

"Ashton are you ready?"

"Coming!"

I skip off the stairs and take my jacket while i make my way out of the house, my parents already waiting for me in the car.

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When the car stops i look out the window, the zoo, well what can i say i know my parents very well, i can't say the same for them, they obviously don't know me at all. I sigh and step out, slamming my door behind me. This is going to be a hell of a long day.

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We're home and it was a total disaster. I am never going to do anything ever again, not with them. They made me feel like a 2 year old. I hate spending time with them. I slam the door to my room shut and lay on my bed. I really want to sleep, but i know that won't be that easy. I run a hand trough my curls and stare out my window, i really don't want to be here. I miss Noelle so bad.