life is never easy a.i

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Maybe it is a sign, maybe.

What am i even thinking, i don't believe in signs.

Should i look if anyone is home? Would Noelle have wanted me to speak to her parents?

I think i am going to regret this, but it can't hurt to take a look, to see if they are home.

I walk up the steps and take a deep breath. I don't know just yet if i hope that they are home or not.

I take another deep breath because i feel as if i might need it and ring the bell.

"Coming!" I hear.

Shit, i don't know if i am ready. I can still run. I shouldn't have come here. This is bad. I can already feel the flashbacks coming.

Flashback:
"Welcome, this is my house!" Noelle says throwing the door open.

"Make yourself at home. But not to much because my parents will kill me if we break something."

Flashback:
"Why is it so dark inside, is no one home?" I ask her, while nodding towards her house. We went to the park together and i brought her home, like i always did. There was never a light on. I always thought it was weird but never questioned it, until now.

"No, my parents aren't home all that much" she says, acting casual. But i can see through that, she hates being alone, she told me that once herself.

Flashback:
"Noelle!? I screamed, throwing the door to her house open.

"Noelle?! Where are you?"

I walked through the hall it was completely dark inside, i tried finding the lightswitch but couldn't find it.

"Noelle?!" Where is she?!

I quickly take a look inside the kitchen and living room but they are empty. I go back to the hallway and sprint up the stairs taking 2 at the time.

"Noelle?!"

"Come on! Noelle answer me?!"

I sprint to her room and throw the door open but she isn't there. Her room is empty. "Noelle?" I walk around but she really isn't there. She has no bathroom attached to her room, so i run around and throw a few doors open. A closet, an office, her parents bedroom (i think, but it makes sense because she is an only child.) And then a locked door.

Oh my god.

"Noelle?!" I try to open it.

"Noelle are you in here? Open the door. Please open the door. Noelle!!"

I kneel and try to look underneath it, but can't see anything but light.

There is light in there. She has to be in there. She has to be.

Why isn't she answering?

"Noelle?!" I am trying to break the door down. But it is harder than i thought it would be.

"Hold on, alright?! Just hold on please!" I am in no definition strong, so it is not easy at all. But after a lot of time (time i know i don't have) i finally break it down.

I see her body in a lot of blood and suddenly i have the feeling like i have to puke but i hold it back. I take her body in my arms and hug her, she is so cold. My cries are so bad i don't know what to do, what do i have to do? And what will i ever do without her?

I take my phone and call her mother.

"Hello, Ashton?"

"Oh my god! I'm so s-sorry" i sob.

"What's wrong sweetie? What are you talking about?"

"Noelle.. she, N-Noelle" the tears are streaming down my face, i can't think normally, i can't speak, i don't know how to say the words, i can't say it.

"Ashton you are worrying me"

"Oh god, sh-she is dead, oh god, Oh GOd, i have her dead body in oh my god i CAn't, oh my god" i begin to hyperventilate. I can't breathe. Oh my.

"Oh my god, what?" She says, her voice sounds as if she is crying. "Ashton, we are calling an ambulance. Stay with her okay? We are on our way back"

I can't say anything back, i am sitting here, in my bestfriend her own blood, with her dead body in my arms. I put my hands on her shoulders. "Wake up, Noelle please wake up." I shake her. "Please Noelle you can't leave me here? You wouldn't do that, would you?" I hear the ambulance getting closer and i can't do anything but sit there holding on to her like she is my lifeline, which she is. I am still there in shock as they take her cold, dead body away from me.

"Ashton?" Noelle her mom shakes me out of my flashbacks.

"Huh?" I snap my head up to look at her. And pain strikes my heart, she looked so much like her mom. I rub a hand over my face and take a deep breathe.

"I haven't seen you around much, um, are you okay?" She eyes me with a bit of concern.

"Huh oh me? Ye-yeah i'm fine, yeah i'm fine."

"Alright, do you want to come in?" She asks. It seems like she genuinely wants me to. But suddenly i don't feel like it anymore.

"Um, actually i have to go, but i will come another time, i think." I say and begin to walk backwards.

"Are you sure? Well, you are welcome whenever you feel like coming, or talking." She says, and i can see that see would really like to talk to me about Noelle but i just realized that i am no where near ready for that.

"I am sorry, another time, okay?" I don't wait for her to answer, i just turn around and walk away from that place as fast as i can.