Shadows of Death

Chapter 4(Charlie section 10)

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Today was my first day in the clinic of mental patients. Although this clinic is connected to the prison, with a favor from Aunt Taylor and Uncle Ted I started my job as a rehabilitative nurse. Everything was nice today. Aunt Taylor took me to her office and gave me some advice and then said I should be a good girl here. At least my aunt is the boss of the clinic!

Everything goes well. Even other nurses treated me with respect and kindness. I think they understand I'm a relative of their boss! But when the matron showed me other parts of clinic I realized there is a ward for the treatment of children and teenagers. At first I couldn't believe children could be inmates, but when I saw the children there I was so surprised! Especially when I saw an eleven-year-old boy in the last room.

The matron told me his name is Charlie Arman. He is here for a week. But when I heard his life story I was even more surprised. I just couldn't believe an eleven-year-old boy could steal a crown or something. However the matron told me the doctors do not predict much chance for his recovery. They think this boy will not be fine again. He had had a really bad shock! I still shudder and am so sorry for that boy! He has an innocent face and he didn't look like a thief at all!"

Charlie, without thinking, turned to the second marked page that Samuel arranged for him.

Today was my tenth day at work. Aunt Taylor is satisfied by my work but my mind is still on Charlie. I just want to empty my mind of thoughts of him but the picture of his sad face won't get out of my mind! I think I should just do something. All the nurses and doctors don't have any hope for him. They only take him some pills every day. Tomorrow I want to speak with my aunt to ask her if I can spend a part of my time with that boy. I just hope she accepts it, God help me!

Today something amazing happened. It's been a month since I've begun spending a part of my time with Charlie. I already do everything for him. I just wanted him to talk. I wink and smile and try to be a friend for him! Sometime I kiss his cheek but none of it works! He just stares at the wall. But today when I entered his room he said: "What is your name?"

I screamed in happiness. I think I did it a little too loud because all the nurses ran to the room! They thought something bad had happened to me! Thank God for that. I think today is the best day of my life.

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Today they return Charlie to the prison. He is quite well. The doctors say it seems to be miracle. But when they transferred him to the prison his eyes were full of tears. I feel I may have indulged a little in my relationship with him. That boy behaved like a lover toward me! When they transferred him, I just couldn't stop my tears. I hugged my aunt and cried my eyes out. When my crying finished, Aunt Taylor said: "I think he needs you, I'll arrange to transfer you to the prison hospital." Oh my God! Will Uncle Ted accept it?"

Stephany, the mother of Charlie, came to the prison today to visit me and Uncle Ted. She told me I should continue my relationship with her son! I told her that her boy behaved like a lover to me and it seemed like I'm his girlfriend and we are going to get married or something! But Stephany begged me not to stop my relationship with him. She told me that Charlie is a teenager and he will forget everything very soon. He doesn't know what is he doing now. But after a while he will be sane again !

After her visit with my uncle, he agreed with her. Uncle Ted advised me to continue my job because maybe Charlie would receive another shock from my cutting off our relationship and return to his worse state!

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These days I have been feeling conscience-stricken and I feel really guilty. Charlie treats me affectionately and he does anything to make me happy. I want to show myself as happy when he's with me but when he goes back to his cell I just feel really guilty. How long I should continue this game? I'm fifteen and Charlie is just a twelve-year-old boy! We can't have an emotional relationship. I admit, sometimes I am happy when Charlie talks to me, but I try to say to myself that this relationship will be finished soon. But every day he shows more interest in me. Some nights I think I'm such a filthy person who plays with a twelve-year-old boy's emotions!"

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