To Believe In Promises (Tumbling Down trilogy - DM fanfic)

Flashbacks (Ch.12)

AN: Anything in "quotes" and is italicized, is a flashback to To Be A Broken Smile when Tyler and Mackenzie argued in the chapter "Liar Liar, Lips on Fire".
Just a reminder 😊

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Me: He told me he had to go somewhere. I knew he was lying so I went over there. We argued over really stupid shit. I guess it meant a lot to us at the time.
Dr.Evans: You did go off on each other. It definitely must have. What did you argue about, more specifically?

I lean forward and think.

Me: It was summer. He didn't have anything to do but I did. Dance camp and going to see my dad and other dance things. I didn't get how he didn't get I was busy. I didn't get that me missed me.
Dr.Evans: Sounds a lot like miscommunication.
Me: Oh trust me, it wasn't. He knew what my schedule was. He just didn't like it. I didn't like his sass.

"Me: Well I don't either but that's what it is. I don't see why you didn't see this coming."

Dr.Evans: What did you say about it?
Me: That he knew I was busy during the school year. I didn't get how he didn't care I was busy during summer too. I said something like 'I don't see how you didn't see it coming' or something. Then things...calmed down. He got serious.
Dr.Evans: Serious how?
Me: He told me he never saw me, specifically, coming. He didn't expect to care about something, except maybe football, so much. I wouldn't take the bait. I told him about how I didn't see half the things in my life that happened coming and then left.

"Tyler: I didn't see you coming. Do you get that? I never expected you in my life. I never expected any of it.
Me: So? Neither did I. But it happened. I got beaten up and made fun of for like 5 months. I didn't see that coming. But it happened. Just like Chloe leaving or my parents divorce and my moms remarriage, and everything else. It happened.
Tyler: So you just think all of the things that happen just happen?
Me: Pretty much.
Tyler: You find no purpose in anything?
Me: I didn't say that. What do you want from me? I don't know how to get you to understand I'll be gone a lot this summer. I'm sorry.

I run my fingers through my hair half way, pull my hair in my fists until it hurts, then release.

Me: I don't even know why I came here. I would've been better off wondering if you lied. I'm leaving.
Tyler: Good. Go."

Dr.Evans: How'd he reply to that?
Me: Well...I made a comment and he came back to fight more. We started yelling again as I was trying to leave. He chased after me and took my wrist and wouldn't let me leave. We said other stupid stuff then his sister came home. That's the only thing that stopped us.

"Me: Have fun with your fake plans. Asshole.

I start bouncing down the stairs.

Tyler: Don't call me an asshole!

I'm down the first set of stairs, ready to turn onto the second one. I feel him take my wrist. I twist it free.

Me: Don't touch me!
Tyler: Then don't call me names and think you can get away with it!
Me: Oh really? What are you gonna do about it? Hit me? Throw me down the stairs? Go ahead, I'm used to it!

We're borderline screaming at each other. Neither of us care. Or hear the door open.

Tyler: Nobody ever threw you down the stairs!
Me: I wouldn't be surprised if anyone would!