Why Do You Hate Me?

27. His House

Song recommendation: Would've been you by sombr

Sunghoons heart gets warm at the sight of Sunoos smile. He expected Sunoo to hate him, to be disgusted. But he's acting like almost nothing happened.

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For the rest of the day they hung out like they always used to. Of course it was akward but they were both happy to be back together.

They were at the playground, they walked for a bit, went to the convenience store and teased each other a bit.

After all of that they ended up in front of Sunoos apartment.

"This is where I'm staying for now...." Sunoo says as he walks inside the building and Sunghoon follows him.
They walk up the stairs and make it to the right door.

"Don't mind the mess." Sunoo says as he opens the door.

They both walk inside and Sunghoon closes the door.

Sunghoons a bit surprised by how small the apartment is. It definitely doesn't look like Sunoo lives here.

Sunoos room back in the dorm had this vibe. It had Sunoos vibe. This just looks like a ordinary apartment.

They both go to the little balcony and sit down onto tge blanket on tge ground.

"So this is where you've been staying...." Sunghoon says as he looks at Sunoo.

"Yeah. I know it's really small but I had no other choice.... " Sunoo says.

Sunghoon just nods knowing very well that he's the reason Sunoos living here.

They sit in silence for a few minutes before Sunghoon speaks up.

"Can I ask you something?" Sunghoon asks as he looks at Sunoo.

Sunoo also looks at Sunghoon and nods. "Yea"

"Well um I've just been wondering......you don't have to answer if you don't want to but will you......will you return to being....Enhypen?" Sunghoon ask carefully. He doesn't know what answer to expect.

Sunoo looks down ashe hears the question. He never thought about it actually. "I um.... I'm not sure.... "

Sunghoons heart drops a bit. "Sunoo.... I know I shouldn't do this but please, come back. The group can't continue without you. The others are worried. Please." Sunghoon says pushing back tears. "I know it's beacouse of me so I'll just.....I'll leave instead. I don't want to shatter your dreams just beacouse I have some feelings for you."

Sunoo looks at Sunghoon and sees the tears in his eyes. He feels so bad. After all the things Sunghoon made him go through he still can't......hate him. He places his hand on Sunghoons.
"No, it's not.....It's not beacouse of you...now. Yes, you were a part of the reason why I left but it wasn't the only reason..."

Sunghoons heart starts beating faster at the little touch. Ge hates himself for that. Sunghoon looks at him confused. "Wha- what do you mean?"

"The other reason why I left is because I just couldn't do it.....anymore. The hate. The miss treatment. The diets. The overworking. I just couldn't take it.... "
Sunoo tears up remembering the past. "You know that all I ever wanted was to be an idol. To have a group. And I actually achieved it but......it wasn't how I imagined it. It's tiring. Mentally and physically. And I know all of us are tired of it...."

Sunghoons eyes fill up with tears while listening to Sunoo. He deeply understands him. It actually makes sense why he left. Sunoo was the biggest target for hate these days. He looks at Sunoo and wipes his tears away with his finger. "I'm so sorry..... You must've had it hard. I know we're overworked. And I'm also tired, but can you at least go back to Seoul? To live with us. You don't have to be in the group anymore just.....stay with us.....please.. "

Sunoo just stares at Sunghoon before he gets closer and hugs him tightly. "Okay..... I'll.... I'll think about it.......I'm glad you found me, I really am...."

Sunghoon freezes from the suden hug. Sunoo needs to realise that Sunghoon LIKES him which means that these small actions make his very nervous.(lol)

"Why are you sudenly saying that." Sunghoon asks.

"It's just that this moment makes me feel really grateful....that you bacicly.....found....me...." Sunoo confesses

"Yea...me too... " Sunghoon says as he hugs Sunoo even tighter. He would be lying if he said that he's not pushing back tears. He just feels so vulnerable right now. Just the fact he can hug Sunoo is unreal to him.

Sunoo also hugs him tighter. He gets a bit surprised by how skinny Sunghoon is. It doesn't look like it when he looks at him. "Why are you so....skiny..." he says with a worried tone.

Sunghoon gets taken aback by the question but decideds to be honest.
"Um well....when you disappeared I was just.... I tought I didn't deserve to eat since I knew I was the reason you...left..."

Sunoo's eyes fill up with tears. "How long did you...."

"A little over a week... " Sunghoon almost whispers.

Sunoo knows the feeling of forcing yourself to not eat since he did a lot beacouse of the crazy diets he was given by the company. He knew the feeling of looking at yourself in the mirror ans seeing just skin and bones.

Sunoo pulls away from the hug and cups Sunghoons face. "Promise me you won't ever do that again. Please... "

Sunghoons looks Sunoo in the eyes. They're full of worry. He imidiately nods, "I promise. I promise Sunoo... "

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They sit on the balcony for a while,just staring at the night sky.

"Do you wanna-" Sunghoon stops when he looks at Sunoo who feel asleep.

He stares at him for a while before he decides to carefully pick him up bridal style and carry him to his bed.

He puts him down on his bed and pulls the covers over Sunoo.

Sunghoon sits down on the bed and just stares at Sunoo.

"What should I do about you huh?"

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Hi ya'll. I'm back with another update. FINALLY it's summer break. I'm going to sleep around 3-4 am everyday so life is absolutely great. Definitely not in summer depression. Def not. Did ya'll see the saseangs that broke into enhypens dorm? That's so disgusting. I literally lost hope in our fandom tbh...
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