Why Do You Hate Me?

31. Spilled Everything (almost)

Song recommendation: Memories by Maroon 5

The day passed by with Sunoo being in his room all day and the others trying to get some info from Sunghoon. It's currently around 6pm and Jay goes to the kitchen so he can make dinner for everyone.

As he's cooking dinner he can feel someones presence behind him. As he turns around he sees Jungwon. (what a suprise)

"Hey"  Jungwon says as he leans on the counter right next to Jay.

Jay imidiately turns to him, "Hey. Need something?"

Jungwon shakes his head and says, "I was just bored..."

Jay strares at Jungwon for a while before he speaks up, "Lies. I can tell when somethings wrong."

Jungwon sighs, "Okay you got me. I'm just worried about what Sunoo will say."

Jay's eyes soften at his words, "Me too if I'm being honest. But we'll figure it out. We're Enhypen, we can do anything."

Jungwon smiles at Jay. He always makes his mood better. "You're right, Enhypen can do anything." He stays silent for a while as he watches Jay cook. There's a lot of toughts and worries on Jungwons mind these days. He speaks up again,"Am I actually a good leader?"

Jay looks at Jungwon in almost disbelief, "Of course. You're the best leader we could possibly ask for."

Jungwon looks at the ground and decides to share one off his biggest worries, "I just feel like I failed yk? Like everything is going wrong. And I don't know what to do anymore..."

Jay knows that Jungwon struggles. He became a leader at only 16yo and the amount of stress this position brings to someone is unimaginable.

Jay just steps forward to Jungwon and hugs him tightly. "You're one of the strongest people I know yk? Don't ever doubt yourself, you're stronger than you think."

Jungwon hugs Jay back. He's so glad he can have someone like him in his life.

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As Jay finishes cooking the others are already coming out of their rooms and to the  dinner table.

As Jay finishes serving everyone Sunoo also joins them.

He sits at the table and also takes a bowl of Jay's fried rice. He can feel everyone's eyes on him.

They all eat in silence.

As Sunoo finishes eating he puts his bowl aside and takes a deep breath.
"You're probably waiting for the explanation..."

The others imidiately turn their attention to Sunoo. They really have no idea what Sunoo went through.

Sunghoon has no idea how much will Sunoo say which gets him pretty nervous. Will he tell them that it's all his fault?

" So before I left I was having a pretty hard time here. Mainly beacouse of how mistreated and hated I was by the company and media. There's also another reason but I don't really know if I can share that since it includes another person..." Sunoo starts explaining. He's never been this nervous infront of his own members. He's fidgeting with the sleeves of his hoodie, a habit that he has.

They all stay silent for a while. 

Sunoo sees the confusion on their faces so je decides to continue, " Since I couldn't take it anymore I decided to...leave. I told only our boss. He probably already told you but...I left the group. I bought a little apartment far from here. I even made a friend. It was nice there but I did miss ya'll so much. That was until I met Sunghoon there. I can't really tell you what happened but I just ended up going home..."

The confession hangs in air. They knew that Sunoo left the group but hearing him actually say it is weird. The Sunoo who loved performing more than anything left?

Jungwon looks at Sunoo, defeated.
" Sunoo...you...you don't want to be an idol anymore...?"

As the emotional person Sunoo is it takes everything from him to just not start crying. "I...okay. I know this is all wrong but I don't want to leave. I love being an idol, I do. It's just that my mental health is not doing well and I'm scared I can't continue for now..."

Sunghoon listens to the whole conversation. They talked about this with Sunoo before but hearing it again hurts even more. " We actually talked about this with Sunoo and...what if Sunoo went on a hiatus? He doesn't have to leave but he can also heal in the meantime."

The others look at Sunghoon at the suggestion.

"Hey that's actually a good idea." Jake says looking at Jungwon.

Jungwon thinks for a while. "I agree but it's still a big decision. Let's keep it like this for now and we can tell our boss tomorrow."

Sunoo definitely feels relieved now that he said everything. Well...almost everything. "I'm really sorry for not saying anything and making things difficult..." he says.

"Just...please take care of yourself."  Jungwon says as he gets up and hugs Sunoo. Sunoo hugs him back.

Even though Jungwon is younger than him he still feels older and more mature.
Maybe beacouse he's the leader. A really good leader.

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Hey guys. Again, sorry for updating late. School has me fucked up.
Only 4 months to my entrance exams and my scores are not getting any better (somebody kill me).
I'm also officially 15(my bday already was like a month ago but purr) .
I was 13 when I started this fic. I feel unc.
Anyways thanks for the song rec.
If you have any other songs than tell me pleaseee

We're almost at 12k which is insane. I'm so glad that at least something in my life is going well.

Thank you for everything seriously.
LOVE YA'LL

Merry late Christmas and Happy new yearr
(i used to think cars would fly in 2026 but look where we are now)