adopted by one direction.

adopted-chap 7

"Well...

You know what the boys know obviously. I self harm. I'm d-depressed. I'm a freak.

I'm also anorexic. I am 99% sure I'm bulimic. And I haven't told them because they will make me eat. I don't want to eat. I want to be skinny and pretty.

M-my dad didn't only abuse me. H-he r-r-raped me. more than once, and i know how disgusting and horrible that is. The first time I was only 8. My mum had died less than a year ago and it happened again three more times. When the police caught him and took him away he left me a note. I found it a week before re boys got me. He wrote that he'd find me. And kill me.

Last night it wasn't just a nightmare while I was asleep. More like a nightmare while I was awake. I saw someone run past my window. Same black clothes my father, or John, used to wear. I went to Lou's room but the shadow followed me.

El, I'm scared"

I could see her processing all the information and she pulled me onto her lap and cradled me like a 2 year old

"Em, you are perfect. You aren't a freak in any way. You're so skinny and beautiful you don't need to starve. I know it's not easy to get over and I know how hard it must be. But I will help you. I won't force you to eat, but I will help and I will always, always be here for you.

John is an asshole and if he ever tried to do that to you again I will murder him myself.

If that was him I will protect you. And so will the boys. They don't have to know but we will keep you safe. He will not kill you, he won't.

Em, you're my best friend, my little sister, my other half. Cheesy as that sounds, but of all the little kids I've met you make me happy and we can be us. I can talk to you about anything. I don't care what you have, I love you em and I will always be here for you"

I cried into her shirt and she stroked my hair

"I love you el"

"I love you too"

I wiped away my tears. She gave me a small smile and turned my around, doing my hair again.

After an hour, I had my hair waterfall braided and makeup done and I'd done els makeup, but left her hair, it was perfect already. We took probably a million selfies and she made me feel so much better. I even ate something, thanks to her. She made me feel beautiful. El was perfect and stunning in every way. She was who I wanted to be.






enjoy my lovelies

and remember

IMPERFECTION IS WHAT MAKES YOU PERFECT<3

~em xo