adopted by one direction.

adopted-chapter 37

HII! just A/N before i start

im going to start writing longer chapters!
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"suicide letter?" el repeated. she didn't look too shocked, just worried and even maybe a little sad.

"yeah" i said opening the note for the first time in a while. "want me to read it out, or do you just want to read it?" i asked her.

"you read it babe"

i took a deep breath and started reading off the small piece of paper.



" 'dear my emilie,

when you read this, i know that i will be already gone. i know that you are probably so angry at me for giving up, as usual. i dont blame you, i just am not as strong as you are.

you are so beautiful, and your life is just starting. i know losing your mum so young is going to be hard, especially with john. for that, and everything, i apologize. im so sorry for marrying such a horrible person, and then now i am leaving you with him.

it wont be easy, and you have learnt a lot of bad things and habits from me, so i wouldnt be surprised if you start to do some of the things i do. it's not something anyone would wish on their baby girl, for them to hurt themselves, and to witness their mother do it. all i ask is that you be stronger than me, because i know how strong you are, i know how you fight so hard through your battles, even at this age.

there is so much more i want to say to you, and do with you, but the paper is running out of space. i will miss you forever and i love you so much. please never forget that. i wish i didnt have to give up this easy, but as i have said, im not as strong as you.

i love you forever-

Mum.' "

i read without bursting into tears, and barely any emotion. el, however, was tearing up.

"dont cry" i said laughing softly.

"she just left you. you had to deal with so much and she knew she would make it worse, but she left. its just, you dont deserve that! you didnt deserve any of the shit that was done to you!"

"its all ok now. just promise you will never leave" i said holding her hand.

"i promise"

i smiled

"can we do a twitcam?" i asked an idea suddenly popping into my mind.

"yes!" el grabbed the computer an turned it on

the door opened and closed, harry walking in.

"can i join your twitcam?" he asked and i nodded.

he came and sat on the bed next to me. we all tweeted that the twitcam would start in about 5 minutes. as soon as we started there was already 10128 hundred people watching. i smiled nervously at harry and then looked back at the camera

"hey everyone" i said waving

"me and el and harry are doing a twitcam because we are bored!"

i looked at the comments. a lot of people were asking where the other boys were

"well..last time i saw liam and zayn they were with harry, dunno where they are now, and nialler is sleeping on the couch" i said finishing with a laugh

"zayn and liam are downstairs i think" harry said

i turned up the music and started singing along to party in the USA by miley cyrus.

"so i put my hands up

theyre playin my song

the butterflies fly away"

i sang quite loudly

the comments were saying that i was a good singer, and others just sending horrible hate.

"you sing worse than the original you stupid fag" harry read "really? is that necessary? just leave!" he said.

i smiled "thankyou" i mouthed to him.

we kept the twitcam going for a while, until my stomach started to hurt.

"im so tired" i said trying to find an excuse to stop the twitcam so i didnt pass out or something with everyone watching.

"its 9.00, its getting late" el said. i think she knew i wasn't really tired but she didnt ask any questions, and went along with it.

"alright guys! thats all for tonight! thankyou for distracting is from our boredom!" harry said

"byee!" i said waving and harry turned off the twitcam.



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the next morning i was woken up by yelling. harry and louis, occasionally zayn.

i groaned and swung out of bed. last night had been reasonably good and id gotten a good amount of sleep.

i came downstairs to see louis and harry yelling at each other, liam trying to stop them. zayn occasionally agreeing with harry, and niall sitting there eating and looking slightly scared.

i went over to niall and hid behind him

"whats happening?" i asked quietly as louis yelled to harry in defence

"harry and louis started fighting over shit and zayn came in to help but then harry bought up how lou was taking over you and zayn agreed so now theyre fighting over anything and everything" niall said

"shit" i muttered.

i got up and slowly walked over to the boys

"ok!" i shouted, causing them to stop yelling but they sent death stares at each other instead "stop fighting!" i yelled again, gaining confidence from their silence.

"fine" harry growled at louis and turned, slamming the door, zayn following after him.

i sighed and turned back around to louis, but he was already gone.





stay strong lovelies

xoxo
~em