adopted by one direction.

adopted chapter 42

the boys (not including Zayn) were all at the arena at rehearsals, and zayn and i were waiting inside the hospital. we had called the doctor that had me in before, and she said she would see what she could do.

"ooh! lets reply to fans!" i said excitedly. i thought it was cute how the directioners love the boys more than anything. i love helping the boys reply to them, and follow them.

zayn opened twitter and wrote a new tweet

@zaynmalik1D: me&em replying to a few fans. tweet some questions for us ? .x

immediately there were questions from heaps of fans.

(A/N idk if these twitter names are real im just making them up randomly haha.)

@zaynmalik1D: @twerkzarryyx the shows are awesome, i love all our fans :D

@zaynmalik1D: @littlethings1d say strong babe, itll be ok x (-em)

@zaynmalik1D: @nouisfeels yeah, but i feel better today. ill be playing tonight.

@zaynmalik1D: @everything1d yess, i love playing video games with the lads. especially harry because i always beat him :D

@zaynmalik1D: @mashtonsbabe no i havent met 5sos. YET! i really want to, im a big fan x
(-em)

we replied to as many tweets as we could before we were called into the check up room or whatever its called.

"so whats wrong today?" the nurse, alice i think her name is, asked.

"well since em was in hospital before, she kept having dizzy spells, and it got worse to blacking out at random times and feeling like she was starving when she had eaten plenty, and lately, throwing up late night" zayn explained for me

"and you didnt think to come in sooner?" she asked.

"i only told him last night," i said quickly.

she nodded.

*

we had been in hospital for an hour now, and they had taken a blood sample to run tests and stuff to see what might be wrong. i hope it isnt bad, not for my sake entirely, but so i didn't have to the the rest of the boys, with everything thats going on, more things to worry about is the last thing they need.

my vibrated on the chair next to me. el's name showed up on the screen and i picked up.

"hi!"

"hey, where are you?" she asked.

"um at the hospital.. why?"

"why are you there? i need to talk to you, for more reasons than one obviously, now"

"well.. i'll explain when you get here? and you have to tell me whats being going on for the past few days!"

"yeah i will. see you there soon?"

"ok. bye. love you."

"love you too," she replied and hung up.

zayn looked at me confused.

"el. shes going to be here soon" i explained and he nodded.

"are you okay?" he asked.

i took a deep breath. "yeah, i think i am" i said, nodding.

"come here" he said, opening his arms. i curled up in a little ball, zayns arms around me, stopping me from falling off his lap to the ground.

"thankyou. you know, for doing this for me. for caring," i said, my voice muffled a little bit by his shirt.

"em, you know i love you. we all do, and of course we would care. you dont have to thank us"

i smiled at his reply. i was about to say something back, when el came basically running into the room. i let myself fall from zayns arms, and ran to hug her.

"hi"

"hey" she replied laughing a little.

"where have you been!"

"i think you should be the first seeing as im at a hospital to see you," i gave a weak smile.

zayn got up and gave el a friendly hug. "zaynie, maybe you could explain?" i said, batting my eyelashes.

he chuckled, but nodded, agreeing to explain for me.

i walked over and sat on the window ledge, while zayn explained to el what was happening. looking down from the window, the view seemed so far away. we were only about 4 storeys high on an 8 storey building, but everything just looked so..easy. normal. people rushing back to work after lunch breaks, some entering cafes with friends. all going anywhere they wanted, doing something with their lives.

the days from the orphanage seemed to come back more than ever these days. we were allowed out in town once a week, eating whatever the volunteers could make up for us all. sometimes there werent enough people, more than less times, so the carers served up old soup or whatever they could make on short notice. girls that would pile on makeup to impress on adoption day, that were constantly walking around with perfect bodies like models. there were lucky kids going every day, but no one ever looked twice at the girl with the guitar and the skateboard. the one who preferred shorts to dresses. she was always 'too quiet', 'too much to handle', never good enough.

but now, im living every directioners' dream. things changed so quickly. there's no way im complaining, i have never been happier. it just seems so unreal.

"em?" zayn called, interrupting me from my thoughts.

"yeah?"

"you wanna hear what el's been up to lately?"

i smiled and nodded, walking over to them. "so start with you and lou?"

"well, we just started fighting about a lot of things, i dont really know how it started but we yelled at each other and eventually i just left. then like 2 nights later at the club, lou got drunk and started balling his eyes out, apologising to harry and i about everything. liam took him home, but he showed up at my door at 1.00am. he was sobered up, i could tell by his eyes, they were sober-looking. we talked for a long time. it was about 4.00 when he left. he told me he would give me space, as much as i needed, and i told him i didnt want space. he left with a kiss on my cheek. i went to stay at my grandmas until now, i came back to today. i think we are okay, but we havent spoken since then and i just dont know"

i squeezing tighter on her hand, that i was holding.

"you guys are like, perfect for each other. you'll find a way through it. i promise" i said and she smiled.

"i know we will" she agreed.

the nurse came back out, holding papers i assumed was the results. zayn pulled my body into his lap and i took the other one of el's hands, starting to shake slightly.

(A/N i dont know if this is a real thing and can actually happen, but its what im going with aha.)

"im just going to give it to you straight okay?" she said and we all nodded. "emilie's metabolism has been messed up due to her previous disorders, but instead of being slower, its been working over time. the food has been in and out of the body as quick as her body can possibly get it out. her stomach isn't absorbing or takin in calories, or any other of the nutrients from the food. it's become so natural to have an empty stomach most of the time, her body doesnt want to change that all of a sudden. its too much."

"so im still basically anorexic?"

"well, in a way, yes. instead its your body resisting food, not you specifically."

"am i ever going to get better..?"

"we have had a few people with things similar to the same. we can put you on medication that will help, though results vary. they may not work. the main thing is to eat healthily and the body will start to respond again. we cant promise you anything, though," she said

"ill leave you for a moment" she said, walking out of the room.

i started at the ground. im never going to be better.

"em..." el said softly.

"I'm never going to be better! I'm going to be anorexic, puking in the middle of the might for my whole life!" i said loudly, and started sobbing, hard, into zayn's chest.

"hey, we dont know that. you're strong, and brave, and you can get through this" zayn said

"i dont want to be like this forever zaynie. i want to be normal. i dont want to have people have to worry about me all the time and ..everything was just getting better."

zayn ran his fingers through my hair and el squeezed my hands.

"look at me" el said gently, and i lifted my head from zayn's chest.

"it will be ok. trust me, okay?" she said.

i nodded.

"we will get through this. all of us"






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