adopted by one direction.

adopted-chapter 38

i looked at Niall, who looked as helpless as i felt. harry, zayn and louis were gone, lou was probably upstairs, but we no idea where harry and zayn were, and they hated each other. because of me? maybe. thats what worried me most.

"they'll come around" liam assured me, but i was still uncertain.

"I'm going to go and talk to him" i said nodding, and walking up the stairs before anyone could reply.

lou's door was shut and someone was in there breathing heavily. i knocked loudly.

silence.

i knocked again, to no reply. i kept knocking until he opened the door

"what?" he said, his eyes not as harsh as his words

"i want to talk" i said as confidently as i could.

"oh yeah? about what?"

"well i woke up to three of my boys shouting at each other, that now hate each other for all i know, maybe because of me, sorry if i want to know what going on" i said half harshly, and half trying-not-to-burst-into-tears.

"sorry" he apologized and let me into his room.

i sat down on his bed and looked at him expectantly. some say impatient, i say wasting no time that can be used to fix two best friends in shit.

"we fought" lou said simply

"well no shit!"

lou shot a warning look at me before replying. "i think there has been a lot on our plates and i guess harry and i were the first to blow up and took it out on each other. then harry bought up me being your 'real' dad because i signed the papers and how i decided to just steal you away, which is where zayn stepped in, to agree. i think he wanted to just get his opinion in before Liam or nialler stopped us, but they didn't, so we kept going. and going..." lou explained.

i looked at the ground, searching for a reply to the whole thing.

"ok, well, im not taking sides because i just want this fighting to STOP, but harry and Zayn are wrong, i spend a much time with them as i do you, and the papers are just papers to get me out of what made my life hell, you are all my family and no legal documents can say who is my dad. but you need to talk to harry, zayn will get over himself, ill go with him to get his hair done or something like that.

tell him that you are both stressed and stop being so...concealed. ok that sounds weird, but let him know your point of view. and build a bridge and GET OVER IT!" i said, not thinking before i said almost everything i just said.

"he just left i doubt he will be back soon, and id be the last person he would want to talk to"

"he will be back for food. or his phone. which he left in my room. and drag him if you have to just sort it out, god, i hate you guys fighting. especially over me. i feel horrible" i said honestly

"hey, dont feel bad, its not your fault, ok boo? ill talk to him. promise" lou said with his hands over both my shoulders.

i nodded and he kissed my forehead.

i got up after 5 minutes and left the room to go and get harry's phone from my own room.

as soon as i reached down to get it, a wave of nausea swept over me. i sat on the bed, coughing/gagging a little, like i was going to throw up. it felt like i was getting hungrier by the day, despite my continuous eating.

i took a few deep breaths and i felt fine again. i opened the window, breathing in the fresh air. once i felt like myself again, i dialled eleanor from harry's cell.

"harry?" she answered, confused, on the forth ring.

"i wish. its me bub. your boyfriend and harry have gotten in a fight and guess who ran. zayn is with him, but his phone is here and i dont doubt he will be back for it, but i would really appreciate if you came over...?"

"yeah, ill be there soon" she said and hung up the phone.

i laid back on my bed. all im doing i tearing the boys apart. im such a horrible person. harry and louis could basically hate each other and i am part of the reason.

now harry and zayn are gone and all i want to do is know that they are ok and have them home. i thought and thought where they could be, and one name popped into my head. perrie.

zayns girlfriend, as far as all of us knew she could be really busy with the rest of little mix, we wouldn't think to call her, wouldnt that be the perfect place to run away to?

i dialed perrie's number, again with harry's phone, and thankfully she picked up on the second ring.

"harry?" she asked in the same surprised tone as el.

"nope its em! but speaking of harry, are him and zayn with you?"

she hesitated before answering "i was going to call you, but zayn begged me not to and harry looked so pissed, all zayn told me is he was in the middle of a fight and couldnt go home" perrie said and i sighed in relief

"im coming there now. with liam, he hasnt done anything"

"ok babe, see you soon"

"ok byee!" i said and hung up.

i almost tripped running down the stairs. i took harrys phone and grabbed the car keys from the bench.

"LiLi can you drive me to get zayn and harry? i know where they are" i said slightly out of breath.

he nodded with a smile and i kissed niall and lou on the cheek "el will be here soon i called her, please tell her i will be back soon?" i asked and they both nodded.



liam pulled up in front of perrie's house 5 minutes later and we headed to the front door together. the door opened just as liam was about to knock. jade stood there smiling. liam gave her a hug, since they were good friends.

"i was told to 'man the door' " she said laughing, closing the door behind us.

liam took my hand, noticing me looking slightly nervous.

i dont want zayn or harry to be mad at me. i mean, im basically the reason of this whole thing. what if they hate me? what if they want me gone? i dont ever think that they would hurt me, but i didnt ever think my dad would hurt me either. the look of anger in harry's eyes when he left seemed like the kind of look john used to get when he started hurting me. but its harry, harry won't hurt me..right?

"hey, they aren't mad at you and there is no way in hell that harry will ever hurt you, and im here. dont worry boo" liam said as if reading my thoughts. i nodded and tightened my grip on his hand.

"theyre just around here babe" jade said leading me into a room.

"thankyou" i said to her and she smiled, brushing some loose strands of hair from my face "good luck!" she said and disappeared around the corner.

perrie turned around and gave us a smile. behind her zayn looked fine, calm, but harry still looked pissed. i walked in and hugged perrie tightly.

"its ok, they arent mad at you" perrie whispered like i was crazy.

i nodded, not believing her, and she left, leaving liam and i alone with the boys.

"uhhh, hi" i said quietly. zayn smiled, but harry stared at the ground.









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hey!

BSE IS HOLY SHIT AMAZEBALLS

and

ITS NOW 3 YEARS

OF ONE FUCKING DIRECTION

it was an emotional week!

anyways,

some of you may have realized that the chapters are kind of stuffing up so i am so sorry about that):

remember,

you are all lovely

and if there are 100 reasons to give up

heres one to stay strong.

i love you all

xox

~em