"I'm thinking I'll have three bridesmaids, plus my maid of honor." It's been less than 24 hours since connor proposed and wedding planning is in full swing, "ugh Connor I don't know who I want my maid of honor to be. cause like, I freakin love layla, but I also absolutely love blakeny!" he just stares at me as if I've gone crazy.
I think I have gone slightly crazy. this whole wedding planning thing might be the end of it for me, I just don't know what I want or how to make what I do want happen.
I think connor can sense my stress, "hey babe it's okay, this is all going to be okay." he rubs my back and comes closer to me, "it doesn't matter what the day looks like, the only thing that matters is that me and you love each other."
this should make me feel better but for some reason it doesn't. I know that at the end of day the only thing that matters is me and connor but I my friends matter to me, I want to make sure it's perfect.
"So I need to know how many guys to ask to be grooms men, do we have a number yet?" I think he sees the panic rush over my face, "if we don't have a number yet that's totally fine, let's talk about it."
"okay, well I know for sure I want Layla and blakeny in my wedding party," I pause and think. hmm, I'm not really friends with a lot of girls. "Oh maybe I can invite Cassidy, I mean that is if she's still dating Chris," panic hits in "Oh my God I haven't talked to my family in months I don't even know if they know me and you are back together."
"hey it's okay, we'll figure this out don't worry," thank goodness I have connor here with me, he is being very understanding, he keeps me calm, "why don't you call them."
I dial up my mom's number, it rings twice and she answers.
"hey mom! is everyone else around?" I want to tell everyone at the same time.
"yes we're all here," she flips the camera and scans the room, showing me that everyone is sitting in the living room together, including cassidy. "what's up sweetie?"
"well I have some news for you guys," I pause to think of how I am going to word this but I am interrupted very rudely by my dad.
"hey how's jack doing? I like that kid." well this is awkward.
"oh yeah so me and jack broke up because connor and I are still in love, oh yeah and were engaged!" I flash my ring on the camera, nothing but stunned faces.
we spend what feels like hours catching up, I tell them all about what happened between me and jack, and how me and connor got back together. everyone is incredibly happy for us, my mom tried to convince me to come home.
I think I would like to come home soon, it's almost the end of summer so we don't have lots of time.
me and connor are thinking that we'll fly home to plan parts of the wedding and then do the rest of the planning when we get back to chicago.
currently our biggest debate is where will the wedding be. all of connors family is in regina, all of mine is in winnipeg, but none of ours is in chicago, but me and connor live in chicago.
we are leaning towards chicago since that's where some of our friends are, and it will be easier to plan a wedding in the state that we are currently living in.
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*time jump*
me and connor have been engaged for 4 months now, we are getting married next month, in december.
We can't do the wedding during the hockey season, cause then we wouldn't be able to go on a honey moon, so we've decided to get married just before christmas and just take a short honey moon.
almost everything is planned, the wedding party will be me and connor, obviously, my maid of honour will be layla, my two bridesmaids will be blakeny and cassidy. Connors best man will be alex, the four of us have been going on several double dates over the last couple months. his other groomsmen will be adam and luke.
we have also decided to not have a flower girl, but we asked jack and trevor to be our flower boys. this is going to be the best wedding ever.
the closer the days get the more nervous I get, but it will all be fine cause I know I'm marrying the love of my life.
I'm laying on the couch at our place, other thinking everything. Is this wedding going to suck? is my dress ugly? did I pick the right venue?
connor walks out of our room wearing nothing but a pair of shorts, he comes and lays down on the couch with me, "are you okay?" he kisses my cheek.
"just stressed out about wedding stuff." I sigh very audibly.
"it will all be okay, it's a celebration of the love we have for each other, so as long as we love each other it will be perfect."
"I guess so," I force a smile.
"I love you so much." he stares deep into my eyes, filled with passion.
"I love you more," I kiss his lips, he rolls over so he's on top of me.
we just lay there, complete silence, just me, connor, and our christmas tree.
This life I've chosen is perfect, I wouldn't change a thing.
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Omg guys this is the end, I didn't know how to end it but I have so much more planned for other books
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