Blurred Lines

~The Untold Truth~

Nick's POV:

Everything happened so fast. One minute I was upstairs with Kali and Austin laughing and the next my biggest, darkest secret is out and my mother is actively trying to murder someone.

I still don't understand what happened or how we got her. I just want to forget this all ever happened. With everything else going on, this was the last fucking thing I needed to happen.

"Nick?" I felt Kali's hand on my arm. She barely touched me, it was like she was scared to.

I looked down at her and smiled gently. She sighed and quickly wrapped her arms around me. She slowly rubbed my back and mumbled how sorry she was and that if I didn't want to stay anymore we could leave.

I knew that wasn't really an option. I couldn't leave here without talking to my mom. She's probably so mad at me. Probably thinks I'm fucking sick in the head after all this.

"Your mom wants to talk to you." Austin said, nodding towards the door. I nodded and kissed Kali's cheek before pulling away and heading outside.

My mom was sitting on the porch, just staring lifelessly at the ground. She didn't move. It didn't even look like she was breathing.

"Mama?" I whispered and slowly sat down beside her. She looked at me and smiled gently.

"Nick. My sweet boy, you know I love you. Don't you?" She asked, turning towards me.

"Of course I do, mama." I said quickly. She grabbed my hands and held them tenderly.

"Why didn't you tell me? Did you think I wouldn't believe you? Were you scared? I just don't understand, honey."

"I didn't think...She said...I just couldn't. I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. You were never supposed to know-"

"That's the problem Nick! I didn't know! I just don't understand why, honey. All I want is to understand why. I know I don't deserve anything from you after letting this happen but Nick you HAVE to trust me. I just need you to tell me what happened." She said, squeezing my hands.

"I didn't tell you because I didn't think you'd believe me. She said you wouldn't believe me. She said if I ever told you she'd say that I forced myself onto her and I didn't...I didn't want you to think I was-"

"Nick, you're my son. I will NEVER believe ANYONE over you. Do you hear me?" She asked, cupping my cheek.

"Yes ma'am. I'm sorry-"

"Stop apologizing. You have nothing to be sorry for. If anyone is sorry it's me. I shouldn't have left you alone with her so much. I shouldn't have brought her around so much. I shouldn't have allowed her to have so much access to you." I didn't like how tears welled up in her eyes. I hated seeing my mother cry. I felt like she'd cried enough in her life and I didn't want to be the reason she shed any more tears.

"Stop crying mama." I whispered, quickly wiping away the few stray tears.

"Did she ever...Did she ever force you to-"

"Mama, don't think about that. It's fine. I'm fine." I said, not wanting to talk about this anymore. I felt like this was the last thing we needed to be talking about right now. It would only add fuel to the fire if she knew everything that happened with Deliah.

"No Nick it's not! If she...if she did THAT to you, she needs to pay for it!"

"It doesn't matter anymore mama. I'm fine. It was forever ago. I just want us to move on. Leave her sorry ass in the past and all the pain she caused with her." She sighed, obviously frustrated that I wasn't being as transparent as she'd like.