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~Made For Me~

Kali's POV:
It's a long one!
⚠️SMUT. Anxiety. Overthinking. Virginity Loss. Creampie. Praise. Body Worship. Dirty Talk. Pussy Drunk. Biting⚠️

It's been two days since we got back and I've been all over the place. Not for any reason in particular, but because I'm trying to plan this night for Austin. I want it to be perfect, explosive, memorable, and the best night of his life. All things that are bound to happen anyway but I'm over dramatic and always have to do the most. I just want it to be perfect for him.

So far I've got it planned out really well. I'm gonna make him pancakes, because he loves pancakes and could eat them all day everyday. Then, we're gonna watch The Flash for awhile, I'll even wear that stupid costume if that's what he wants. And everything after that is still unclear. I want him to be comfortable and relaxed before we do it. I know how nervous he gets sometimes and this is one thing I don't want him to feel nervous about.

I want this to feel natural. Everything about us works together perfectly, the pieces always fall into place without much work and I don't want this to be any different. But I still worry. What if I mess this up? What if he doesn't like something I do? What if it starts and goes completely wrong? Too many questions, not enough answers.

I'm trying not to drive myself crazy thinking about this but it's proving harder than I thought. All the pieces need to be perfectly in place and it has to go exactly the way I planned. I'm overthinking. I'm losing my mind over this and I don't know how to stop.

"Kalani Valentina London, if you don't sit your ass down and be still." Nick grunted from his seat on his bed. He was currently listening to me go on and on about my plan for Austin. I'd been up for hours thinking about it. Insane, I know.

"Nick you're not listening-"

'Kal, I've been listening to you for almost two hours. I've heard every plan, every idea, every thought that's come out of your pretty little mouth. And you know what I think? I think you're worried about nothing." I frowned and crossed my arms.

"Nicholas-"

"Blondie is a simple minded idiot. He won't even notice all the shit you're doing by the time you drop your draws and bend over. I'm telling you, nothing you can think of is gonna be better than letting it happen naturally. Blondie doesn't care about the food, the show, or any of that other shit. You could literally go in there now and tell him to fuck you and he'd be naked before you finished your sentence."

That may be true but I can't stop thinking that I wouldn't be doing enough. I've had plenty of experience, but this is his FIRST time. Not just his first time with me, but his first time PERIOD. He's never had sex before and I don't want it to be lame or boring for him. As stupid as that may sound.

"I know, but I want it to be good. I want him to feel good the entire day before we do it. Y'know?" Nick sighed and held his hand out. I slowly moved over to him, allowing him to wrap his arm around my waist and pull me down onto his lap.

"You're overthinking, Kal. If you want to do all that shit for Blondie, do it. But you need to understand that it's not going to make or break anything. Just let it happen." He said softly, running his hand over my ass.

"It would make me feel better if I had a plan. It puts me at ease to know that if something goes wrong I have a plan. That's all." I shrugged and slid my arms around his shoulders.

"I know, baby. The only thing I can tell you is that you should guide him. Show him what you like, how you want it, help him learn your body and what makes you tick. Then, let him try on his own. Let him find the things he likes, just like you have with the rest of us." I nodded slowly, thinking about how that was going to work. It was obvious I was going to have to lead Austin but now that I'm thinking about it I'm nervous all over again.