101 reasons why I loved you // l.h // ON HOLD

week 15

reason #15 (our cuddling sessions)

dear luke,

this is the fifteenth reason of 101 why I loved you.

you and I didn't see each other much, so when we did, we would make sure to cuddle as much as possible. I loved the way we would lay in bed and you would hold me close because you knew you wouldn't be seeing me again for a while.

we had a lot of cuddling sessions when you were home, actually. you only came home for a week at a time so we usually found ourselves cuddling every night you were here and I would lay in your lap with my arms wrapped around your shoulders with my head buried in your chest as tears trailed down my face, whispering into the fabric of your shirt that I loved you and I didn't want you to leave me for another 6-12 months.

you would rub my back soothingly as you told me with a hoarse voice that you loved me more than anything and that you'd see me soon. we would hear your flight being called and I would look up to you to see tears rolling down your flushed cheeks and I would cuddle further into your chest as you stood up and kissed me hard, rubbing your thumbs over my cheeks.

we loved to cuddle in bed more than anything. it was like a tradition. you came home, we cuddled. you would hold me close with your arm around my shoulder, and I buried my head into your chest, inhaling the scent of your cologne and the laundry detergent I used the day before to wash all your clothes before you went back on tour.

you'd whisper something funny in my ear and I'd giggle as you tickled my sides lightly, making me squeal and squirm away from your touch.

we would link hands on top of your stomach and I would use my other hand to trace patterns on your hand as you giggled at me and told me that it tickled.

I loved when you squeezed me into your chest and kissed my forehead. the simple action made my heart flutter.

I missed hugging you tight and feeling your body next to mine. it was something I loved when I had it, when I could have it, but I didn't think I would miss it as much as I did when you were gone.

it was the whole package of you, I guess. just one of the things that came along with loving you that I got to enjoy. and I missed it like crazy.

that was reason 15 of 101 why I loved you.

love, amanda

A/N, sorry this was a bit short, hope you liked it anyways :-)