Maybe We Should Go Back

Millenials are old folks

I don't know where the time has gone. I feel like I updated this yesterday, only to see it was back in mid-October. Time is flying by this year and I don't like it (note: I don't go by January-December when I talk about "the year". I go by the school year and just now realized that what I said might not make sense without this context lol. My friends are all teachers and it's how we all talk so I barely think about it anymore).

It's not only that I'm having a great year at work and I don't want it to end, but my own kids are getting older and it's starting to hurt watching them grow up. I have truly loved these little years, the five and under years. It's been so precious. I dread the day they will want nothing to do with me.

That being said, I feel like I've done a decent job of taking every opportunity to be with them, play with them and converse with them. I don't want any regrets as they move from early childhood to older childhood. I just want to soak it all in and know that I truly treasured this time.

Christmas was good. The kids got too many toys as per usual (my mother and husband mostly to blame), and I got the whole "Court of Thorns and Roses" series by Sarah J. Maas from my husband. I started the first book and I'm really enjoying it.

Here's a fun fact: I used to work with this author WAY back in the day (I'm talking I was in late high school/college - circa 2006, people) when I used to post my writing on Fictionpress. Her username was SJMaas and we would critique each other's stories. I remember she always gave excellent feedback on everything I ever wrote, similar to sandydragon1 nowadays :). I'm happy she has had so much success in the published world. She truly deserves it, and I'm just embarrassed because I feel like my writing was such shit back then, but I guess it was the best I had to offer lol. I cringe so hard when I read that stuff now. Not sure what drew her to my embarrassing stories but I've always felt fortunate for those interactions.

I'm feeling a bit down and depressed lately, but I'm blaming the fact that every time I'm on break I get out of my routine and sometimes miss a day on my meds, and I'm taking so many things these days it really affects me if that happens, and it has. I skipped all of Sunday and had to pretty much eat a cereal bowl full of pills yesterday morning to get all caught up.

I have a pill organizer, one of the ones where you can put your morning pills and your night pills in, and during school I have a step by step routine: get up at 5 a.m., brush teeth, take pills, skincare rituals, makeup, clothes, get kids up/dressed, breakfast, drop little one at daycare, commute to school. My routine when I'm off? Wake up around nine, watch some YouTube while still in bed, eventually get up and do most of the regular stuff but all leisurely, which makes it hard to remember all my steps. God I sound like a nursing home resident right now (no offense to the elderly- all of us can only hope to live so long). I feel the need to add that I go to bed by ten every night and haven't been out on the town for like a decade at this point lol. Old folks life.

Until next time...