Imagine

9. All I Wanted

ALL I WANTED

At all my victories I've smiled happily

You too smiled with me and was proud of me

My smile wasn't just for me though, I was proud I could win for you

Because every single thing I've done was for you.

I worked hard, spent so many hours without sleep

I felt so tired, my body feels as if a truck run over it

But I continued to work unhindered, bearing all the pain

Because I believed your smile was worth more and it was for me.

However it seems that luck has run out

Because I no more am able to clinch victory, though I've tried so hard

I was sad not for me but for you, because I knew you'd be hurt

But I also believed that you'd comfort me, you wouldn't mind this so much.

Everyone had things to say but nobody thought to say anything soothing

Everyone was like "You could have done better" , "Try harder next time", "What's up with you?"

I bore it all with a smile though I wanted to scream and cry and be sarcastic

Because I thought you'd tell what I wanted to hear.

I expected you to be hurt but I however did not expect you to be disappointed

I did not even think that you'd lose your faith in me but I was proved to be wrong

You were just like the others, only pointing out the faults and telling me to be better next time

You never thought of sitting down and comforting me.

It was just 2 defeats but there were 10 victories, but those 10 victories meant nothing

And 2 defeats meant a lot of things

Why is that everyone forgot about all the good and focus on the bad?

Why is that people believed I was a rock and could bear anything thrown my way?

I was left to comfort myself and no one was there to share my grief

But in my happiness and victories, everybody was there to share

We need encouragement but we also need comfort and a break

But no, people thought I was a machine and could work forever.

I've given up everything just to keep you happy

But nobody sees that, all they think is laziness and ignorance is the problem

They don't know how much it took  for me to reach victory and defeat

And no one was willing to know it either.

I wasn't prepared to hear comparisons or loss of faith

I don't want those blank words of encouragement

What I wanted was very simple, all I needed was

"It's not a big thing, it's a temporary setback and don't worry. You will win again at the right time."

Hello wonderful people,

Sorry for the long wait but here's the 9th instalment of 'Imagine'. A quite depressing poem (according to me) but what do you think?

This poem is basically about doing things for others, which does give you a good name but also pain which has to be endured. People can remain victorious but there's a time we have to fall off the ladder. People help you to climb it but when you fall off, they take the wrong path to make sure you're okay and all they want you to do is climb the ladder again vey soon. They don't care that you are hurt or what but desperate to see you become victorious again. Sometimes some humans are mistaken for machines and I want to assure everyone of you right there THAT NO HUMAN WAS, IS OR WILL BE A MACHINE! People need a break and please let them have a small break because more than the others, they are hurt too though they don't show it. Be a bit sensitive and remember life is not all about winning!

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Forever,

GirlzSparkle