Imagine

12. Feeling Brighter

FEELING BRIGHTER

The winding, stone pathway strewn with decayed leaves

Which crunch under my feet as I walk through

Looking at the greenery waving at me

For a moment, my heart feels at ease.

I look up at the light blue sky, clear today without any clouds

The rays of the sun spread far and wide

It seems as if the heavens have opened up

The world has brightened considerably and I feel at peace.

The darkness which has shrouded me so far

The darkness which I thought belonged to the world

Has now disappeared, leaving me with a lighter heart, a brighter smile, joyful laughter

And I giggle as the wind softly play with my hair, twirling and twisting it into tangles.

While days ago, I would have cared about tangles and imperfection

Trying my hardest to fit in, to be perfect and flawless

Trying to be noticed, to be admired, to be loved

Thinking about reason why nothing would happen, trying to make things happen.

Now, I realize that I don't need all that because I have it all

I don't care if there's mud in my face, sand in my shoes, dirt on my dress, tangles in my hair

I don't have to frown, cry and think about reasons because I've finally found it all

No more darkness shrouds me, no more distraction- the entire world is crystal clear and bright.

No more worries, no more secrets, no more stalking

I have time for myself and nature finally

I never knew how much time I've wasted with my thoughts 

And how I failed to see the beauty in the world around me.

You were once the shining star, but now you are just a speck in the horizon

I was enthralled and sucked into your vortex but I've finally escaped

To hear the birds sing and enjoy colourful sunsets

No more do you outshine the moon and the sun.

The world around me is immersed in melodious songs, soft gentle rustling of leaves and occasional insect noises

The flowers envelop me in various fragrances, better than the high end perfumes

I skip on the cobble-stone pathway, laughing out loud, letting the sun kiss my face

I feel loved, I feel free, I feel all what I wished for.

Everything seems lighter and brighter

My eyes sparkle like before, my blood once again flows with determination

I know I can reach my heights, because I will try and I won't let go

For my determination and will now outshines the fantasies I had

I have finally found myself in the ashes of my soul, I'm building myself up again

I've let you go far away because I realised my potential, my dreams

And I've finally learnt to find love, care for me in myself 

Because I love myself more than anything else.

So, peeps...how was this? A little too confusing, a little too  weird, a little too fluffy? Well, just a poem in passing.....so this poem is all about letting go. There are times when what we want is not something we can get and no matter how much we try, that thing or person is simply not supposed to be ours. We may have a strong determination but we might also be destroying ourselves, so the best thing at the time is to simply QUIT! We only have to quit for valid reasons and for better promises because we can't  just quit because we want to. So, just quit if you have better things in mind and that thing or person is stopping you from achieving it or doing your best in achieving it. It might be hard but in the end, it'll all be worth it! 

Happy New Year!!!!

Forever,

GirlzSparkle