Imagine

15. If you can't be kind, SHUT YOUR MOUTH

Humans are stupid. Humans are awful. Humans are unbearable. *sigh * I am human too but I have my days when I can't bear the presence of any other human except virtual ones. Virtual ones meaning, humans I don't know in real life. Honestly.

So this rant comes after many rumour mongers and jealous backstabbing individuals decided to make a presence in my life. My life was relatively calm with the same old problems and hectic school life (TG, next year is my last year of school...then comes uni...*sigh* more human interaction.) Okay, I have nothing against human interaction but there are just so many different people in the world and though I try my best to be flexible and let them be...it's hella irritating when they decide to poke into my life and make it a living hell for me. Like dude, I was minding my own business why the heaven can't you do the same? Too bad, I am such a nice person that I grit my teeth and mind my own business even after those monkeys (I feel bad for the monkeys now, such homosapiens are worse than cow dung) play hell in my life. The day I explode is the day those people will run to Antartica and freeze to death. (Sorry not sorry!)

Okay so coming back to the main topic on hand...sorry, my anger is just going off in waves cos I can't get it out in any other way except ranting out in writing (I wish I had the courage to go and scream it in their face! Seeing them and smiling at them kills me from inside...it takes so much EFFORT!) Okay...so back to the topic at hand (YAY FINALLY!)  So a few weeks ago, some of my most amazing and caring neighbours (please sense that sarcasm, most amazing and caring, my foot!) decided to spread some rumours to my parents about certain people and from that day onwards. My parents being as innocent and naïve as they are have believed these individuals. The rumours they have spread about certain people is 100% lies and completely unkind. They ruined the characters of the people and told stuff about them that is extremely damaging. I tried to tell my parents that these were utter lies yet all what my parents told me was that "You're young and naïve, you don't understand this world. You don't know what you're talking about!" I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT? I HAVEN'T BEEN BRAINWASHED BY EVIL WORSER THAN COW DUNG PEOPLE, I KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT. So all my efforts were futile =(  And if those people stopped from there, would've been nice but what they have told was so damaging that it constantly ran in my parent's minds and that has been honestly pissing me off because the people who the rumours were about are quite close to me.

MORAL OF THE STORY: DON'T SAY BAD STUFF ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. IT ONLY TAKES FEW SECONDS TO TELL SOMETHING BUT IT TAKES MONTHS OR EVEN A LIFETIME TO GET OVER IT. WORDS HAVE A POWER EVEN A NUCLEAR BOMB DOESN'T HAVE. IT KILLS SILENTLY, PAINFULLY AND A WORD CAN DESTROY ANYTHING.

Now I have to clean up my parents' brains...just giving them time but in the meantime, if those worser than cow dung homosapiens start one more thing- I'm gonna rip their dignity to shreds. Nahhh...I am not that bad but when I get mad, I don't know what's gonna happen. I haven't seen my extremely bitchy self either.

And incident number 2 was when one of my team mates have complained to our boss that I was extremely difficult to work with because I am immature. Yes, I am immature. I take things as a joke at times and I behave like I am on a perpetual sugar rush mostly, yet when I work- I work with utmost concentration and behave matured. I do not mix work and personal life nor fun and work. I finish my stuff on time, I work according to deadlines and give my 100% to all what I do. Also, almost everyone who has worked with me finds me someone extremely understanding and easy to work with so this was quite a rude shock to me. Worse part is the person who complained is someone I know very well and regarded as an extremely close friend. She was someone I stood up for and defended against a lot of things. Someone I trained and recommended. Someone whose faults I overlooked and covered. Perhaps, I should've nit picked all her faults and pulled her up every single time she made a mistake- then she wouldn't have been such an airhead and told such awful untruths about me. Maybe her head wouldn't have been so swollen as it is now. Ms. High and Mighty can do whatever she wants now and I'm not even going to interfere because I am done with her high and mighty nature. I can't mollycoddle and baby her, she has her mother for that reason. I absolutely refuse to be her minion, I am my own person and I can be my own minion.

But the sad thing here is, I felt extremely hurt at the betrayal and then felt angry and sad. Then I was thinking how pathetic people could be and felt a little pissed off at that too. But this turned into self-loathing and now I hate myself. *sigh* Emotional roller coaster rides are just not for me, I find it extremely hard to handle them. I just don't understand why people need to shoot off their big mouth if they have nothing nice to say.

What's the point of saying blatant hurtful lies about other people? Why joy can you derive from it? Perhaps a very sadistic morbid kind of joy, when you see other people suffer. But remember, whatever you do, comes back to you. So do good if you wish good for yourself, if not...do bad...and get a double dose of it back at you. (I forgive but hardly forget...so hard to act like I'm okay with everything).

Talking bad about others may only take you a minute, but to undo all the damage done it takes more than a lifetime. So be careful with that tongue of yours, keep it shackled whenever you feel the urge to talk bad.

To all the victims, God has a better plan. And those people will pay for whatever they have done. Don't worry.

Forever,

GirlzSparkle