spaces between us (grayson Dolan)

ch.35 sharing secrets

*about a month later*

Tessa POV

I let out a huge sigh. I was lying on the couch in Grayson's basement with my feet draped over the arm rest. No one was talking, but the air was filled with a relaxing kinda feeling. Finally Grayson spoke up.

"Hey Tess?"

I turned my head towards him,
"Ya?"

"Well, I've known you for almost 6 months and even though we've only been dating for like a month, I feel like I can tell you anything." He muttered, looking down at me from his position on the couch.

"So...." I drew out, confused on where this was going.

"So, I wanted to tell you something that I feel like you should know because I trust you with my whole life." He said.

"Oh. Ok." I replied, sitting up and giving him my full attention, truly curious as to what he needed to tell me.

He took a deep breath.
"Ok. So, here I go. I've never told anyone this, well apart from Ethan, but nobody knows this. When Abbey and I were dating, we told everyone that we had sex." He explained looking straight ahead and occasionally looking back towards me. I nodded my head showing that I understood what he was talking about.

"Well, the truth is we never actually did. We just said it to be cool and Abbey wanted to be more popular and I thought 'what harm could it do right?' But I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm a virgin." He said, his cheeks going pink and his eyes levitating to the ground. Wow. I can't believe he would tell me something like this. It's huge and the only person he's ever told is Ethan. This just proves how much he trusts me; why can't I trust him? Wait, no. Lemme rephrase that. I do trust him but why can't I tell him my secret when he just told me his.

"Grayson. You shouldn't be embarrassed. That just means that you are waiting for the perfect person to share it with. And if it makes you feel better, I'm a virgin too so that makes two of us right?" I asked, lifting his chin up so he could look at me.

"Yeah I guess." He chuckled.

"Thanks for letting me share that with you." He exhaled into my neck as he cuddled himself into my side. I instantly felt that pang of guilt. Why can't I just come right out and say it? Because I'm afraid. Afraid that after all this time, someone's gonna tear me down just like they always do. Anyways, I've already been hiding it for this long, what would be the point in telling him now?

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My eyes fluttered open and a wave of panic flooded over my body. Where was I? Oh wait. This room looks familiar. I was startled when I heard light snores coming from next to me and something restricting movement in my waist. I moved around to see Grayson peacefully sleeping next to me with his arms wrapped tightly around me and his face buried in the crook of my neck, his hot breath tickling me. Ohhhh. We must've fallen asleep. I started to shift a bit which caused him to stop snoring and move around. After a little bit, those warm brown eyes appeared from between my neck and the armrest.

"Hi." He said in his raspy sleepy voice, giving me a lazy smile. Oh gosh. Just that voice makes my heart pound against my chest.

"Hey." I whispered, returning his smile.

"Did we fall asleep?" He asked, stretching a little.

"Yeah, I think so." I replied, starting to sit up but was pulled back down.

"No. Lay with me." He whispered with his face pressed against my head, muffling his voice so that it just sounded like he couldn't breathe.

"Ok, but if I get in trouble for being late, you can explain." I warned, laying back down and resuming our cuddly position.

"I'm alright with that."