For those in need

Chapter 19 - Too much information (N)

"Thanks Goddess!" Alastair said and I saw a his relieved face when the familiar feeling of safety, comfort and trust filled every inch of my body. I've felt this way before but when? I didn't expect this feeling to come. Maybe I needed someone to say they want to protect me since I felt so alone. I accept someone cares about me. Just like Cathy said when I told her to not be afraid to love and trust again... she said the same goes for me too. Chase would want me to be happy... to have someone by my side who can love and protect me and Michal the way he would if he'd be still here.
"What are you doing??!!!" I screamed a bit because he made me stop thinking about my feelings and I had to stop his attempt to kiss me and I pushed him away from me.
"What's this?" I asked him still keeping the distance as I walked towards Michael who started fussing in his crib since my yelling startled him.
"You don't feel like kissing me?" He asked cautiously.
"Not really." I retorted and he looked confused.
"So... ehm... what or how do you feel?" He asked shyly.

"I don't really know." I answered honestly and turned my back towards so I can comfort Michael. "Maybe... I feel a bit weird, giving all the new information, but safe... I feel like the world now can't hurt me or Michael anymore. It's strange but regardless of what you said I trust you. Somehow deep down I know you really mean it and I don't have to be afraid of you be it you are werewolf or not." I didn't hear him coming closer but suddenly he hugged me from behind and I didn't push him away. It felt amazing to be held like this - to let him protect me, comfort me, let me just exist...
A thought came to me and I started giggling how silly it was.

"What is going on?" He asked cautiously.
"I feel like I'm a Little Red Ridding Hood and you're that big Wolf." I chuckled and snuggled closer to him. He relaxed a bit and chuckled as well but his hands trembled nervously.
"You can be sure neither I nor anyone in this house will do you or Michael any harm. Our pack is not exactly the best example of our kind but the rules apply here more strongly than in any other pack. We are disciplined and we got together to achieve certain goals so we have strict set of principles. You accepted me, that means you are Luna of this pack now. The ceremony should be soon, maybe tomorrow or"
"Wait what?" I interrupted his monologue and broke the hug to face him. He looked at me and his gaze held some gravity.

"I am Alpha, I command the whole pack, nobody can stand up to me and my duty is to protect every single member of this pack. If I fail then I lose authority over the pack. My mate is called Luna. That comes with the same power and responsibility as mine. The pack needs to officially accept you and we can become the ruling couple."
"Wait... wait... wait..." I got confused. What is going on right now? "I don't understand..."
"As you just accepted me we are officially bonded. There are a few more steps to make it permanent but we can take that slowly since you don't feel like kissing me now..." he said casually.

"I'm not gonna sleep with you!" I shrieked in panic.
"I figured..." he said bitterly and continued "but it's ok it can wait. I am now absolutely thrilled you accepted me and that's enough. Even though it's weird you don't feel any attraction to me - Mates are normally crazy for each other." This is not interesting to me, I want to know more about what I signed up for by simply saying'I accept you'.

"And what about that Luna thing? What does it mean to protect the pack." I asked.
"Your decisions are respected by everyone in the pack - and sometimes even members of other packs since the energy can be so strong. So your decisions we'd to be always to the highest benefit of the pack." What on Earth am I supposed to be deciding?

My face maybe gave away my question so he started explaining. "It has to do more with internal affairs like rituals, education of children, supplies and many other things."
"Children?" I asked and turned to Michael. "There are also werewolves as children?"
"Yes, they are born. We shift when we are 15 or so. As I said our pack is not exactly typical picture of our world but that doesn't mean we can't be like that one day..." he said gently. "Plenty of our pack members didn't find their mates yet so once we are done with our mission we can live as any other normal pack. I know most of them long for it."

"How do you know? They might be saying tha but think differently." I said, happy we moved to another topic
"I am able to read everyone's mind, there isn't much they can keep away from me. Of course I allow them some privacy but if it's necessary I can access everything." He said. That was shocking!
Thinking about it now that answers how could he know about the fire and how they got in the private room in the club without having a phone to call them. But then another thought came up.
"So can you... like also... do that thing with..."

"It's called mind link. And no, I can't read yours or any other person outside of the pack. When we proceed with the mate bond I can, but not now." He said gently smiling. I heard the door thudding and it offered me a way to escape.
"What's going on there?" I asked and wanted to leave the room but he was quicker.
"Our patrol just got back." How did he... oh right, mind link...
"But we are here for a long time now, you should get back downstairs and finish your breakfast." He smiled gently and I took Michael and walked back downstairs to feed him some breakfast. I just strapped him and started feeding him when more people came in.

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