This Is Me ( stud x fem )

Chapter 28 - Change

Ky
I wake up happy. Last night, the love of my life made love to me. Tender, neck-biting love. God, she's so -- She's not here!
My instincts automatically kick in.
"Summer!" I yell. "Summer!"
Raylynn runs is. "Daddy! Daddy! Stop yelling. I'm playing virtual football!"
I skip over to her and check her face. "Are you okay?"
She nods. "Where's mommy?"
I sniff. "I don't-" I start to cry. "I dont know! Baby, go put on some clothes. We going to go find mommy!"
I slide on my Jordan slippers a reach for my-- phone that has a note on it. I unfold it and read it.
Ky,
I love you more than you'll ever know.
That's why its hard to let you go.
Thank you for all you've done for me.
In time I truly hope you gone see.
I never meant to end this negatively.
This just the way it gotta be.
~~~
Im leaving. I have to find myself. Make something of myself. Help my damned self. Do.... something.... I love you.
-Summer
Im in tears sitting on my bed when RayRay runs back in. "Daddy, why are you crying?"
I sniff. "No reason, baby. Uhm, let's go see TT Mo."
"But what about mo-" she starts.
"Go put shoes on!" I yell.
She runs out.
I reach for my phone and call Summer. With no surprise it goes to voicemail, but I listen to her voicemail just to hear her voice.
Summer... Summer... Summer...
I call Mo and put her on G. She answers sounding guilty.
"Hollup, wait. You knew?" I yell. "You knew?!"
Mo sighs. "Ky, Ima help you raise RayRay. Summer got to do her shit."
I push my hair back. "I love her."
"I know you love her.... But you got to let het go." Mo sighs. "She got to breathe. She loves you, but everything is weighing her down. Her dead dad, her stupid ass mom, her abusive ex, and well.... Someone who loves her too much!"
I hang up the phone. Fuck no. They dont understand! I love her! And.... Now, I can't- How can she leave me?
~•~•~•~
Summer
"Renzy?" I call as we're both laying in the bed on my first night in Maine.
"Hmn," she groans.
"I think I should do what my dad wanted me to do...." I start.
"What was that?" she asks.
I sigh. "I should model. You know? I saw an ad that includes modeling and acting in the airport today. I think I'm gonna try it. It's tomorrow. You gonna drive me?" I ask.
Renzy groans. "If I say yes will you go to sleep?"
I laugh. "Yes."
~•~•~•~
I step onto the stage and look at the seven judges.
"How old are you?" the blonde on in the middle asks.
"Seventeen."
They all write down something.
"You may proceed," she says.
I take a deep breath and recall the memorized monolouge that I read in the lobby.
"Its okay..." I start. "You dont have to stay... They all leave, eventually. You got what you wanted now shoo! Gone now! Get the hell out! I dont want you! I dont neeeeeeeeed another mistake. I csnt afford it."
They all look astonished.
"Wow," the white stud on the end says. "You are an amazing actress! What have you been in?"
"Nothing," I say, blushing. "I know you required someone with history, but I just thought I could-"
A white man on the opposite end laughs. "Ha! Yall thought that was good? Huh?! She's black and inexperienced! That was horrible! She can't play this part!"
I shake my head. "Fuck you," I say simply.
He clears his throat. "I beg your pardon."
"Fuck. You." I kiss my teeth. "Im good! I know Im good. And I'm gorgeous. So yes. Fuck you." I walk out so pissed off.
The white stud follows me. "Wait. Wait. Stop it, ma'am. Please."
I whip around. "What?! Huh? What you want? Im too black for the part! I understand. Bye."
She grabs my hand. "I think you're beautiful."
I pause. "What?"
She smirks. "Look, I know you dont know me, but.... Do you want to be famous?"
I laugh. "Huh?"
"Do. You. Want. To. Be. Famous?" she asks. "I'm Lauren Stacks. I'm very rich and very powerful. You.... You have some things nobody else has, and I want them on my side in this business."
I scoff. "And those things are?"
"One, you are gorgeous." Lauren touches my face. "Two, you have a bomb ass body!" She grabs my hips. "Three, you have this..... spunk. This pow!"
I laugh. "I dont know. I have to finish college. I want to be a lawyer."
Lauren smiles. "Be both. Go to law school while I'm building you up in this game! I got you! I got you, mama."
Renzy walks up. "AHEM!"
We both jump.
"Sorry," Lauren starts. She takes her hands off of my hips. "This is your girlfriend?"
"My cousin, actually." I correct her.
"Well...." She turns back to me. "Can we discuss this over dinner last night?" She hands me her card.
I nod and bite my lip. "I'd love to, but I hope you dont think I have intentions with you because I just got out of a very serious relationship."
Lauren smiles. "Look. I want to take you far. But I...." She starts to slide her hand up my hip. "I do think you're beautiful and sexy and-"
"SMART!" Renzy adds. "She got school to do!"
"If... If you want to --" Lauren smiles. "I know you can go far. I'll pay for your schooling if you make me this money."
I look at Renzy's facial expression change. "This might be legit."
•~•~•~•~•
Ky
"Daddy, when are you coming back?" she yells as I walk out the door. Raylynn has asked me a million times.
I smile. "Soon. Im joining the marines, baby. I got business to handle, but I'll see you as much as possible. I can Facetime you often. Look around," I say. There's Mo, Dee, and Jae. "These are the only people you trust, my little football player. Okay?"
"What about, Mommy?" she asks.
"I-I... If Mommy comes back, you can always trust Mommy." I kiss her cheek. "Goodbye, baby."
The Few.
The Proud.
The Marines.
I have to focus on something... Someone. Some....... Some'n! Besides Summer. Plus, I want to serve my country as much as possible.
4 years later.... (next chapter)