You know those days
When you barely want to get out of bed
Or do anything at all
You just want to fall asleep or stare to nothingness
You feel like you lost something
Or that you miss someone
But no one pops in mind when you try to find a name
Despite that, you'll force yourself to get up
Prepare some food you can't even finish
Then do the chores you must do
Distracting your mind from turning blue
You'd play music loudly hoping it will fill the silence
But it makes you dive deep in it instead
You'd try to tire yourself
Even if it feels too much effort to just take another step
And without noticing it, you're staring to nowhere again
And then you'd try to watch something
And read books in between
But nothing changed
It feels like floating on water
You're just going with the flow
"Why am I like this?"
You'd continuously ask yourself
But there's no definite answer
The hormones, the weather, the thoughts?
You can't figure out either
You just know that it's already dinner time
And you'd still eat what you cooked for breakfast
Along with the cold coffee on the table
And you'd wonder, what's wrong?
Where did all the energy go?
Will it be like this again tomorrow?
The sad thing is... we don't know.
