I wish I was a little more selfish
A bit less sensitive and somewhat weak
I wish I was clumsy enough to reason out
Why I can't do things done properly
Or that I'm too self-focused that I don't care about others
I wish it is easy to just let things be
Even if it's chaotic and messy
I wish I was not too bad to myself
That I often self-sabotage
I wish I was a little bit of someone who can freely express herself
Without the feeling of being too much
I wish a genuine talk was taught to me rather than a rebellious one
So when I speak, I won't feel like I'm fighting someone
I wish I grew up a little later
So the responsibilities I bear are lighter
Days like this, makes me want to just crumble
But I can't even cry to make myself feel better
There's just too little space in this room
They can no longer accommodate my wishes
