The Mate That Couldn't Love

Chapter 3

Dean and I walk in the woods. I feel like I belong in the woods. It's nice here.

The way the leaves crunch under your feet. The way the trees shake in the breeze.

I hear music in the distance and my feet run towards it. The music is calling me. Dean runs after me shouting my name.

I Stop and face him. "Don't you hear the music, Dean?" I ask him. He listens for a while. "No." He shakes his head and looks confused.

"Well I hear it." I whisper and run in the direction the music is coming from. The music gets louder as I near a barn.

A smile creeps up on my face as I walk in. Everyone is smiling and dancing to the music. It's like they all know the choreography. Everyone's dancing the same!

I walk in and watch the scenery before me. Dean sits next to me and watches with me. "How could I not hear the music?" Dean asks himself.

"I don't know. You just don't have music in your blood like I do." I say and get up and dance with everyone else.

It takes me awhile but I learn the dance and I'm a pro at it. Everyone dances for hours. Non stop. Everyone's just having to much fun!

I make eye contact with Dean and I motion him to come over. He shakes his head and I pout. He rolls his eyes and he walks towards me.

I grab his hand and start dancing. Eventually he catches up and he's a pro like me.

Suddenly the music stops and everyone stares. At me. No one makes a sound. Just stares at me. "What's wrong?" I ask. Everyone screams and runs away.

Everyone's still afraid of you. After all, you do kill everyone and everything you see. Liz says. What do you mean? I ask.

YOU USED TO KILL INNOCENT PEOPLE, RACHEL! She shouts at me. Tears fall from my eyes. How could I kill anyone? "Hey it's ok. Those people don't know you." Dean whispers.

"No. I'm fine." I whisper. I shift into my white wolf and start running. I ignore Liz and keep running.

I used to kill people? How could I kill innocent people? Did that include children? How can I live with myself?!

I stop at a cliff an I look down. It's about a 300 foot drop. At the bottom you can see fog and I can hear the river at the bottom.

I lay down and look over the cliff. I feel a presence next to me and see Dean. We sit in silence for a while until he mind links me.

It's going to be ok. That's not really what I wanted to hear but I reply anyways. No it's not! I don't know anything! It's like I woke up with amnesia! I hate it!

I stand up and walk back to the house. Once I'm there i run into my room and I shift. I take a shower but half the time I'm crying.

Why can't I remember anything? Liz? Can you please tell me what happened! I need to know! I tell Liz. She's quiet. Great.

I get out of the shower and put on a big tee shirt. I put my hair in a bun and walk downstairs.

I go into the kitchen and see Dean. He's sitting at the table, he looks like he's in deep thought.

"Can we talk, Rachel?" He asks. I hesitate before nodding my head and I bite my lip (it's a habit). I cross my arms and sit across from him at the table.

"Are you ok?" He asks. Why does he  always ask us that? Liz says. Because he cares! I reply. Do you care? She asks. Of course I do! Lie. To be honest, I don't know.

Half of me cares about him and wants to stare into his eyes for all eternity while the other half wants to tear his eyes out and rip his heart out.

"Yeah. Im fine." I say, my voice sounding like an old mans. He looks at me for a moment before nodding his head.

"What happened to your family?" He asks. That question caught me off guard. I don't know what happened to my family? Why don't I know?!

Your mother was killed and so was your father. You had a little brother but he...was also killed. Liz blurts out as if it's an everyday thing. But when she started to talk about my brother she sounded unsure?

What? I ask her already knowing what she said. Your mother was killed by Alpha Daniel Addams. Your brother was killed by a rouge and your dad was attacked by the beta of the Blood Moon pack.

A tear falls from my eye as Liz tells me this. You wouldn't lie to me? I tell her. No. Sorry Rache.

"They were killed." Is all I tell Dean before getting up and leaving. When he's out of sight I break down.

Why can't I remember anything, Liz? Why can't I remember my family?
Why can't I remember my childhood?
Why can't I remember my parents?
Why can't I remember my brother?

I run upstairs and close the door behind me. I slide down the door and cry into my knees.

Somehow, Dean gets in my room and he puts an arm around me. "W-Why c-can't I rem-remember a-anything, Dean?" I ask him, I look up into his eyes not really caring what I look like.

"I don't know." He says. I cry into his shoulder for what seems like hours. Liz why do you remember everything but I don't? I ask her.

Because when you hit your head on that rock You were in control, not me. If I were in control I wouldn't remember anything but you would. Sorry, kiddo.

The tears stop and I realize that I lost my memory because I hit my head on a rock.

It's ok. I tell Liz. I look up at Dean. "Dean? When we first met did I hit my head on a rock?" He looks down at me and nods his head. "But you still kept going. It was like you didn't want me. You smelt me but you kept running. There was a stick in your leg and you kept going. Was I really that bad?" He chuckles.

"I don't know."