Wishful Thinking

Chapter Thirty - The Perfect Ending

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy blasted from the speakers and a huge smile spread over my face, the evening had finally started. We wrapped filming today, so we were partying the only way we knew how. Even though this was a party, and everyone was slightly dressed up, I didn't see the need for formalities. I'd walked into the room wearing my Harry Potter skirt, a pair of brown heeled boots I'd bought recently, a plain black shirt and an army jacket that had Screw It written on the back. The outfit didn't work at all but I felt so comfortable jumping up and down on the dance floor with it. "I bloody love this song!" I screamed at Kacie.

She had a matching smile on her face and was actually dancing with me. "I can't believe I'm doing this!" she screamed back, laughter following.

I laughed too and took her hands, twirling her around. "Just let go!"

"I am!"

We shared another laugh and then Tony joined us, wearing one of his stupid Pokemon shirts. Typical. "Isn't tonight great?" he shouted, shaking his head back and forth like a wild animal.

"Yeah, but you look like you're about to hurt yourself!" I joked, letting go of Kacie.

"I'm enjoying myself!"

"I can see that!"

Tony gave me a look and then danced off, if you could call it dancing. I looked to my right and saw Tom and Ben partaking in what looked like a drinking game, oh god. Evie, Keira and Orlando were standing behind them watching and cheering. Colin and Bradley were watching from the next table, laughing whenever one of them looked like they were about to topple over. I had a very strong urge to go over and join in, wouldn't that be a laugh? But no, after seeing Tony drunk the other night I don't think I want my dignity leaving quite so soon. Tom threw his head back and downed yet another cup full of alcohol, then he smashed it down on the table, pointed at Benedict and laughed. Colin clapped and hit Bradley on the chest, Bradley frowned in return. I guess they had a bet on. Benedict very slowly lifted a glass to his lips and then drank it just as slowly, and forgetting to put the cup down. I think he'd fallen asleep! I grabbed Kacie and ran over to them. "Is he asleep?" I asked, laughing.

Evie nodded at me, unable to talk because of laughing so much. Benedict woke with a jolt then and the cup flew out of his hands, hitting Tom in the face. Funny doesn't even begin to cover it.

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"Silence, I guess, I've always had this weird fear of silence." I said, leaning on the back of the chair.

Kacie, Tony, Colin, Bradley, Evie, Tom, Ben and myself were the only ones left in the room. Although, Tom and Ben were still quite drunk and were currently dancing with each other to the slow music that played from the speakers. Evangeline had put a random shuffle on the machine and it played all sorts of songs, some I recognised but others were like from the 70s. We were all sat around a table together, well all of us except the two lovebirds on the dancefloor, and were asking random questions. The latest was fears. "Silence?" Tony raised his eyebrow.

I threw my empty cup at him, "What did you think I'd be scared off? Monsters under the bed?"

"No, just silence is a bit of an uncommon fear."

"Yeah, well I'm an uncommon person."

"Why silence?" Colin asked, interrupting before a word fight broke out.

That surprised me, why silence? I had no idea why I was scared of the silence, it just made me anxious. "I guess I just relate bad things to silence, exams and loneliness for example." It was as good an explanation as any.

"I have a question." Evie blurted, sending a mischievous look my way. "Who's ready for the premiere!?"

I laughed and put my head in my hands. The premiere would take place in about a month, after all the sound editing and special effects had been added to the movie. Then the movie would be done, all this would be done, and everything would go back to normal. Well, except the extra school year of course. But in a way nothing would be the same again. I was an actress now, a proper actress. I had an agent, I had experience and the determination to do more. I could audition for other roles, I could get into any drama school (maybe not any) and live my dream. As cheesy as that sounds. The premiere would signal the beginning of my life, and would reassure me that this wasn't a dream. And it was all happening in London, my favourite place in the world. Of course, that was a little request I'd made, to have the premiere in London. There wasn't another place on Earth I'd rather have it. Saturday 6th of February 2016, that was the set date. It had to be a Saturday obviously because of school, although we'd begged to be given the Friday so we could go down and prepare.  They'd given us the Friday, thankfully, so we could drive down. Even though it was a month away I was already a little nervous, it was a premiere after all. Everyone would be there, cast, crew, director. I would be going as both author and actor. It was my first premiere and I was totally freaked. "Who's bringing someone?" the question snapped me out of my thoughts and back to reality.