Music- I know this may sound stupid, but the reason I live is because music. It has been there since the beginning. It shows me my life is important. At least for the time being. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get to go to a concert with just Phil and I. I really love him, but I don't think he loves me. In fact he is mad at me right now. I don't know why probably just because I haven't been speaking much. That's why I started this list because it was getting harder to live and this gives me a reason to live at least for today. I can tell you one thing music is there when I fall apart and can't seem to get back up. As sad and pathetic as it is music is what kept me going when I was 14 and apparently now too. It just makes life a little easier to live for awhile until I have to go back to life. Sometimes it doesn't feel like living more like surviving. Right now the only thing that keeps me going is music. At least music isn't homophobic assholes that like to call themselves my parents. Yeah that's right i'm gay and my parents seem to not know how to accept me. I guess I can't blame them I am a disappointment and the world would probably be better off without me, but I guess I am going to live another day and see how the world takes it. I bet Phil and I will get in another fight, my parents will ignore me, and all the fans will yell at me to make another video. Sometimes it's hard to make a video when you don't feel like yourself and everything feels so close and distant at the same time. I'll probably go another day sitting in my room while the world goes on because I don't matter as much as I wish I did. Well I guess this is goodbye until my next sleepless night.
Dan Howell
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Reasons Why (DanxPhil)
FanfictionReason 1- Music This could be very triggering. Self harm and inability to live. I am very bad at describtions but this is the reasons why Dan Howell should live. He wakes up every night from nightmares and to stop from hurting himself he writes do...
