Reading- I love reading. It brings me into a new life. The ability to jump into another world gives me the time to just leave my life and not worry about anything. It is another world that I want to be apart of whether it be horrible or amazing it shows me something will get better and other will get worse. It is a different view on the world. A way to be mad or happy with the character instead of myself which in the end really helps. Reading is what I do when Phil is mad at me, but who can blame him I don't leave the house or talk anymore. The fans are getting worse with their demands. I can't get away from it neither can Phil though. They all comment "Where's Dan?" and I'm sick of it and I think Phil is too. I don't know if he even cares for me anymore. I honestly am having a hard time listening to him crying all the time about how I will not talk to anyone anymore and it makes me sad to see him sad. I really don't know what to do. Reading is the only thing that keeps me hoping things will change. When I read books about death or even Phan it makes me sad because I want to be in those stories they seem so much easier then dealing with my problems. I am sick of not being myself, but I don't know what to do. The only reason I will live today is because of books. I feel if I blink I will miss a million books and opportunities to leave the world even for a second and into someones life. I miss the satisfaction in reading about people who are leaving in a nightmare because it seems that my life is always worse than theirs even though it isn't. For today the only reason I am living is because of the home away from home; books.
Dan Howell
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Reasons Why (DanxPhil)
FanfictionReason 1- Music This could be very triggering. Self harm and inability to live. I am very bad at describtions but this is the reasons why Dan Howell should live. He wakes up every night from nightmares and to stop from hurting himself he writes do...
