Rainy Days- The beauty of rainy days is there is a reason to stay inside. I personally hate going outside unless I have to or it is a day where everything is drenched in rain and water. London is amazing when it is raining. The rain will hide the tears that fall down my face when I think about me and my life. Rain is the only thing that makes sleeping a possibility. Thunderstorms are also nice because I can blame the intense crying that storms bring on because I'm scared, but really my world is crashing. Most of it is my fault. Not Phil's or my parents. I think Phil is thinking of moving out. I really don't blame him. I am a mess that never does his job or clean the house. He told me today he wasn't mad at me and that he understands, which is impossible. I am hideous and fat. No one could like me. I want to leave this Phil alone, but I'm a selfish asshole and want to keep him to myself. I feel really bad about it though. Sometimes I think about leaving, but he always seems to find a reason I need to stay. I honestly love him. I'm so stupid to think that he would want me. I really can't that storms enough for letting me cuddle with him. I am "scared" of storms and he lets me cuddle with him because it seems to be the only thing that "calms" me down. I also love to walk the streets when it is raining because then no one asks me question about my face being wet and my hood up. I love the rain because it feels like it is washing away all of my problems, but that just me. So I decided today the reason I am living is because of the tears and the screaming of the clouds. If that wasn't clear then rainy days are the reason.
Dan Howell
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Reasons Why (DanxPhil)
FanfictionReason 1- Music This could be very triggering. Self harm and inability to live. I am very bad at describtions but this is the reasons why Dan Howell should live. He wakes up every night from nightmares and to stop from hurting himself he writes do...
