Memories- Phil and I have made many memories. Most great, but lately they've been pretty horrible. Sad moments in my room where I cry and remember all the recent moments were Phil has yelled at me. He'd then yell at me about how much he loves me. Reminder: we're not dating. Although I want to, it's not going to happen. Phil has been gone and angry more. I don't know what I did. I think it has something to do with me living. A couple of times Phil has cuddled me all night and the next day he'll avoid me and not look in my direction. This is all my fault. He hates me just like everyone else. I can remember the times we had together. The shared food, tears, and everything else. I can remember the shared pain, screaming, and emptiness. I can remember everything. I lie alone at night thinking back to everything that's happened. To the times he will hate me off camera, but on camera we have this amazing friendship, one were we are never mad at each other. All friends fight, but not all friends hate each other. We're supposed to be best friends not whatever we are. I miss him I really do, but I don't know how much longer I can do this. Please Phil I'm begging you, stop doing this. At least tell me what I did wrong. I don't care if it's something stupid. I miss the cuddles and exchanging looks and smiles and...and....everything. I miss you Phil. There's too many memories to count, but I'll never forget the most fun I ever had with you. Goodbye.
Dan Howell
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Reasons Why (DanxPhil)
FanfictionReason 1- Music This could be very triggering. Self harm and inability to live. I am very bad at describtions but this is the reasons why Dan Howell should live. He wakes up every night from nightmares and to stop from hurting himself he writes do...
