Reasons Why (DanxPhil)

Reason 10

Showering- The peacefulness of standing under a wave a water with the ability to breath. The shampoo running down my back. The times I've spent thinking of video ideas and Phil. I don't think I've ever had a shower that I haven't thought about Phil. Most of the time it doesn't consist of dirty thoughts (but sometimes it does). They're more "How am I supposed to tell Phil I love him and have since I first saw him on YouTube" thoughts. Yeah that's right I've loved Phil when he was just someone I watched on YouTube. Now we live together and I can't just tweet him like regular "fangirls". These showers will also clear my mind and help me think of things that usually are suppressed because of something else going on. Showers are also the place where I can cut in peace. Phil used to be worried when I took more than 45 minutes in the shower, but now he's just relieved. It's kinda funny how I still love him even though people keep telling me to let him go. Phil is dating someone now. I think I don't know anymore I stopped paying attention after he said I found someone. I'm happy for him I really am, but I can barley stand to see him with someone else. I want him to hold me and hug me not him. I don't know if he even likes me as a friend anymore. I know I love him. My showers have gotten longer because I know cry in them so Phil can't hear me. I bet he doesn't even care. Sometime he acts like he cares. I know he doesn't. There's not much more to say, so for today I'm going to live for the sake of showers

Dan Howell