Reasons Why (DanxPhil)

Reason 7

Piano- I love music. Piano to be exact. Its beautiful melodies and harmonies. I used to just sit for hours and play the piano. Making and playing songs all the time. I started to back away from my musical joy when I had something else to fill my thoughts; Phil. That gorgeous human took me away from my piano. I can't blame him though it was my fault I just loved him too much. I started writing songs for him, but then I gave up. I was never going to play them for him so there was no reason to write it. He used to love my playing until one day I just stopped. He didn't seem to car too much. I think it was because I usually played it at 4 A.M. I started piano years ago. My parents yelled at me for playing MCR at 3 A.M. So when I moved in with Phil I figured he wouldn't care as much since he said that he stays up late like me. He would get frustrated with me when j wouldn't play in front of him. I don't think I have ever played in front of him willingly. Maybe I will sometime when he isn't mad at me. I used to play it more than I did my school work. I never took a class though. We'll never payed for one. My music teacher gave me free lessons. I would thank her for that if I used the skills now. Sometimes I regret just stopping to play it. The piano gave me ground to stand on when I was bored or feeling sad. I could get lost in the music and just forget for awhile. Until it all went away. People started asking me to play it. The piano felt more of a chore than for fun. It frustrates me that Phil still brings that up. The fact that I just won't play it because of the fans, but that's not the case it's more that I can't even fathom the idea to be happy. The thing is that I listen to piano music and it calms me, but even thinking about playing just stresses me out. I don't really know why anymore, but I still love the piano. So for today the reason I'm not gonna pull the trigger is because the piano and all its glory.

Dan Howell