Reasons Why (DanxPhil)

Reason 13

My Note- I finally moved. Away from Phil. Away from my old life. I turned on my phone and no notifications. That's a first. Not that I'm the most popular person, but I usually have someone trying to contact me. Months ago I wrote this beautiful message. This was when I just started thinking about leaving. The note was about the reasons I was leaving.

"Phil,

I'm going to miss you. A lot. I know you'll be happy to have me gone except I won't be paying the bills you used to need help with. I love you. Don't try to contact me. I changed my number. You may never see this. You may throw this away, but just in case you don't, please don't look for me. Don't tell the fans about this. I'm still going to upload videos and try to continue my career. It won't be easy without you, but I think I can manage. I know you'll have a better life without me here. Be free. Be happy. It's a fresh start for both of us. I don't want to leave, but I have no choice. It's too hard to watch us drift away. I don't think I'll be coming back. I'm going to stay where I am. Don't miss me too much. If I decide to come back, you'll be the first person to know. This is goodbye for a long time. Don't file a missing persons report. Don't start a search. Don't tell anyone. Don't stop filming. Don't stop being you. For the first 18 years of my life I didn't have a best friend. Thank you for making these past 6 years the best years of my life. It was the best thing to happen to me. I don't know what I would have done without you. You saved me. You loved me when no one else would. It's time to stop this moment in my life. This may sound selfish, but you'll be happy. You'll have fun. You'll meet someone who loves you and you love them. You'll replace me. Quite easily I must add. Find someone for me. Please.

I love you. Goodbye.

Yours,

Dan Howell"

This...this keeps me going. My note.

Dan Howell