You were mine once

Again Chapter 4

You grabbed my heart with your two bare hands
You grasped me with your two arms
You held me when I was 2,000 feet above the ground
And you dropped me
Free falling into love
The deepest and scariest hole to find
But even if I was the one who dug it,
I don't know what's at the bottom.
You hold the string of my body that's hanging above.
I shouldn't have dug it so deep.
I though one more night could fix it all.
Than I realized things don't change.
Feelings of nothing don't change.
And at this point I'm falling into nothingness.
Again.
Farther.
Faster.
Deeper.
Harder.
Sadder.
Again.
I promise this time I won't kiss you.
I promise this time I'll look right through you.
I promise this time you won't play with my feelings.
I promise this time you will never touch me again.
I will keep those promises forever.
We are on the same page now.
We both don't want anything.