Kill me? (Mikey Way Fanfiction)

Chapter 9

I woke up and found Val still sleeping in my arms, I smile to myself. I shake her body softly to wake her up "5 more minutes Katelynn" she said. She must be missing her sister so much. "Come on, we need to go home." She slowly open her eyes and smile at me "Oh hey Mikey." Oh God she's cute. "The tour is tomorrow. We need to go home and pack our stuff" She nodded and yawn. "I'm up" she said. 

Gerard, Valerie, and I go to our house to pack our stuff, and prepare ourselves. I feel like something going to happened on tour but I shake it off, maybe it's just me being paranoid and yeah nothing to worry, Mikey. Just drop it. I lay down on my bed alone, thinking. Valerie and Gerard went to a coffee shop. I heard Val's phone went off, she got a massage. I grab it and open it. I shouldn't do it. But I feel like need it. 

"I've told you so many times. Go home, you little bitch. If you don't go home today, I swear I will find you and do something bad on you"

I read it maybe like 4 times to make sure I read it right. It was from her father. I check her phone and found so many text like this from all of her family. What the fuck, is this what you called a family? I can't believe something like this should happened to her, I mean no one deserve a family like this. No one. I heard the door open and she came in. "Why you don't tell me?" I said and look at her deadly in her eyes. "Tell you what?" she said. I open the text and give her, her phone. "You open my phone?" She asked. I run my hand through my hair desperately "Yes. Yes I open you phone and read all the text. Okay, I'm sorry. Now why you didn't tell me about that?" I said

"I don't want to worry you?" She said, more like asked
"You already did" I said a little bit too loud, she look at the floor
"I'm sorry" Ah shit, I scared her.
"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you" I step closer to her and hug her.  "I just don't want you to get hurt. I'm afraid to lose you" 

"Thank you. I just don't want to be a drama queen here. It's not a big deal." Oh beautiful stupid little girl.
"Throw your phone. I will give you a new one. Please listen to me this time."
She nodded her head "But you don't need to give me the new one, it's okay."
I didn't answer her, I just hug her and thinking. Can I protect her?

-----------------Tour-----------------

Well, it's our first tour day, and we're going to Dublin. 

"Are you sure you will be fine?" I asked her again
"Of course, Mikey. I'll be just fine. You probably should go now or Frank will come into this bus and pick you up. Now go" She said and push me gently
"Can I at least have a kiss?" I asked, she giggle and give me a quick kiss on my lips.

I locked the bus and go find the rest of my band. I feel like it's not safe to leave her alone. I offer her to stay at the backstage maybe a hundred times, but she said she don't want to bothering me. I run my fingers through my hair and sigh.

"Don't worry to much, Mikes. She needs some time alone. Maybe to clear her mind and just get some rest from your overprotective side" Gerard elbowed me and smile. He's right. I need to stop worry too much. I grab my bass and get ready for the concert. She will be just fine, she said she will be alright. 

"THANK YOU SO MUCH DUBLIN!" Gerard scream through the microphone and run to backstage, followed by the rest of us. This night is awesome, like usual. The crowd are crazy in a perfect way. How I love to be on tour. "Hey, you want to go to the bar?" Frank asked, it's probably 9 or 10 pm, Val must be sleeping "Okay" I said. I need to drink anyway.

"Have fun, little brother" Gerard patted my back and walk away with Frank and Ray, leave me alone by myself. I ordered a bottle of Jack and drink it slowly, feel the sensation of the alcohol that goes through my throat. Feels good. I see Frank is dancing with a random girl and leaving Ray and Gerard. Typical of Frank. I feel a little bit tipsy but I still drink it anyway. Another hour goes by, and I feel drunk. Or maybe I'm drunk? I don't even care and it seems like Ray is the only one that sober. We go to our bus which I don't know how, but all I care is we arrived. I'm drunk, too drunk to think. I collapse to my bed and sleep. But wait, did I sleep or do something?

 "MIKEY GET THE FUCK UP! MIKEY! NOW!" I feel someone's shaking my body violently 
"5 more minutes, Valerie" I said and get back to sleep
"That's the problem, you stupid human being. She's not here!" I open my eyes completely and jumped off the bed. I see Frank with his panic face.
"How can she left? She said she won't go anywhere!" I said and walk to every room in this bus
"You don't remember anything?" Frank asked
"Remember what?"
"You're too drunk, Mikey. You're too drunk."
"What did I do?"
"You.....you yelled to her. AND SHE LEFT! SHE FUCKING LEFT!"
Did I?
"WHY YOU LET HER GO?!" 
Frank just look at me in the eyes like trying to kill me inside

"I don't even know, she will left. I don't even know you words hurt her so bad, I don't even know when she's left. I woke up and looking for her this morning and she's gone. She's fucking gone. And she left this!" He hand me a letter and I read it.

Thanks for your help, Mikey. I'm sorry if I messed your life up. From now, you don't need to take care of me anymore. Once again, thank you. 

Oh fuck.