Kill me? (Mikey Way Fanfiction)

Chapter 19

A/N : I'm sorry for not updating for a long time. I'm currently in medical school and that's why i dont have so much free time.

So, just like Frank said before, I'll go. I'll go and meet her wherever she want to. Maybe at the coffeeshop where i met her for the first time? Or maybe at the park where she tried to kill herself? I dont even want to remember how her eyes show me all kind of pain in the world. I dont want to remember how sad she was and how desperate she was so she thinks the only answer is suicide.

Tomorrow gonna be the last day I meet her, I thought to myself. Maybe I should stop meet her after tomorrow. Maybe, tomorrow I will tell her how much she meant to me but I can't stay this way forever. I mean, I have life, I want my own happiness. Am I too selfish? To think about my own self? No, I don't think so.

For me, it could be so easy to forget her, just think all the negative things about her and let myself hate her so much. Or maybe I could just let things go, find another girl that better than her and probably not as selfish as her, not as complicated as her. Maybe. Probably. I don't know.

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Today is the day. This is day where I let go of the one I loved the most. Is it the right choice? I don't know, probably yes. I'm tired of thinking about someone that's doesn't even give a damn about me. I'm tired of giving up my own happiness for something I can't see. I walk with my head down--as usual--to the coffeeshop, still asking myself, am i doing the right thing?

After I arrived at the coffeeshop, I don't see her, I don't see any redhead girl around. Does she play a trick on me? I sigh, maybe she's on her way here. I ordered a cup of coffee for myself and walk outside, look at the park where I saw her with knife on her hand that night. I see a redhead girl there, sit and wait for something or someone to come. I walk closer to that girl, that's probably Val. I tap on her shouder and yap there she is looking as beautiful as ever and i can feel myself falling for her once again. Damn gravity.

"Hey" She said, stand up and smile at me.

"H-hey?" I said

She chuckled a little bit. I see the circle around her eyes getting bigger and darker, I wonder what happened to her while I'm not around. But I tell myself once again, I'm not gonna ask anything about her except she really want to talk about it to me.

"How are you?" She asked. I want to scream in her face that I'm NOT okay, I really am not okay after she left me.

"Good? I think" I said "How are you?" I asked back, expecting she will tell me a story about her life, but sadly, she doesn't.

She pull out something out of her bag, an ivitation. To her birthday? Well shit, no. To her wedding.

"I'm fine, and I'm getting married next week. And I want you to come" she said, with a smile. With a fucking inocent smile on her face. She, shamelessly invite me to her wedding with someone else while she knows all I've been throught after she left. I'm so angry that I can't talk even for a word.

"My father's friend son. If you wondering. He kinda 'sell' me to him so his company would get bigger. I don't know, and he said that's the only thing, the only way to stop him abuse me? I don't understand. I'm so sorry, Mikey." She said

"If you don't understand, why would you agree to do it?" I asked, stare at her right in her eyes

"Can you say 'no' with a knife on your neck?"

I sigh, I don't know what to say anymore. I don't care about anything anymore. I just smile as big as I can and wave goodbye to her.

I wish I never met her in the first place.