Kill me? (Mikey Way Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

Today is the day, the wedding day. I decided to come and say goodbye, well I always use the 'say goodbye' thing to see her, right? But who knows if it will be for the very last time?

I go by myself, left a note on the table for Gerard

I'll go somewhere, please don't looking for me. I wouldn't do something stupid

Doesen't sound like suicide note, does it? I sigh, now I know how hard to let go of something that very valuable for me because of something I can't handle. I arrived to the place where the wedding will be held, and sit not to close to other people. I'm scared.

The sound of wedding song wake me up from my thoughts, then I saw him standing in the front, waiting for his soon-to-be-wife. He has redhair that matches her, and smile on his face doesn't look like it was forced, it seems to be the real wedding without any forces from anyone. Maybe she's just make an excuse, maybe she love someone else but use her father as an excuse. Maybe, who knows? After being hurt again and again, I can't even think clear. I can't even open my eyes and imagine the best thing that gonna happen today. No, I just can't.

And there she is, walking down the aisle with her father beside her. They almost look like a normal family. It hurts to see her as beautiful as this, and it hurts that she will marry another guy. I fight back the tears, I can't cry in front of so many people, and I can't cry on her happy day. I should be happy, now she won't be abused by her father anymore, someone take care of her for the rest of her life and I wish he treat her better than I am. They say each other vows and some people cry because how beautiful the vow is. They promised to stay on each other side no matter how hard the situation is, and promised that they will grow old together. I should be happy.

"You may kiss the bride"

That's it, that's my goodbye. I walked out the church, I told myself after this I will be happy for the rest of my life. I will sleep tight every night, and woke up just as happy as a bird that just learn how to fly. 

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3 months after the wedding, I walked to the coffee shop (happily of fucking course). After I got my coffee, I walked to the park where I met her but it feels like nothing. I felt nothing. Then I saw a girl, crying by herself. Of course she's not Val, it can't be. I throw the empty cup to the trash bin, then walked home. I don't want to love someone because of tragedy anymore.