Dear the people of society that know me, from parents to teachers to random strangers on the internet, listen up.
I'm not one of you. I never will be. And here's why.
I can't stand this world. The way we've created it. The way where no matter what we do, we have built a wall for ourselves that is impossible to take down. We can't change who and what we are anymore. We can't change the world we've created and shaped into what it is now, a cruel, unforgiving, twisted place with artificial happiness and stupidity. We can't change any of it, even though some of us wish and need for it.
I guess what I'm saying is, I'm tired of waking up everyday to do the same damn thing. Wake up, go to school, go home, go to sleep.
Wake up.
Go to school.
Go home.
Go to sleep.
Wake up.
Go to school.
Go home.
Go to sleep.
It's not enough. And I can't help but wonder if this is all my life will ever be.
Wake up.
Go to work.
Go home.
Go to sleep.
I can't do that. There has to be some variation. There has to be some difference in every day. There has to be some meaning other than for money, knowledge, power, or whatever else people strive for.
I don't want to do that.
I'm sick of waking up every day at 6 in the morning just to get on a god damn bus full of loud and obnoxious people.
I'm sick of getting on a bus full of loud and obnoxious people to go to school.
I'm sick of going to school to hear a bunch of teachers spew random knowledge at me and expect me to remember it.
I'm sick of forgetting that knowledge and getting criticized for it.
I'm sick of going to school to hear a bunch of teachers spew random knowledge at me and expect me to remember it, only to get back on that bus with loud and obnoxious people.
I'm sick of getting back on that bus of loud and obnoxious people just to go home again and do 5 hours of homework, which is really just a long drawn out memory game.
I'm sick of going home to do five hours of homework just to go to sleep again.
And I'm sick of waking up to start the entire system over again.
Wake up.
Got to school.
Go home.
Go to bed.
It's an endless loop that barely anyone can find their way out of.
Like I stated earlier, we created a world we cannot change.
We created a world that will never change.
We created a world that doesn't allow change.
And I hate it.
I'm tired of people telling me I have to do shit for my future, because in all honesty, what is my god damn future? The same thing I'm doing now?
It always will be that way.
Even when I grow up, get married, possibly have a kid or two, even if every day has some slightly different conversations or actions, it's all the same. It will never be good enough. Not for me.
But I'm stuck in this world that I hate and there is no way I can escape it.
That doesn't mean I can't make it interesting.
So you know what?
Fuck society.
Fuck it all.
I'm different.
I'm the emo fag that you give harsh glances to.
I'm the rebel who doesn't like listening to people.
I'm the one glitch in your perfectly programmed society.
I'm the person who's going to do anything and everything to break free from this bullshit people call life.
This isn't life. This is repeat.
Just to clarify, I am not going to be breaking laws or anything. I'm still doing my homework and going to school.
What I'm saying, and if there is anyone out there who's sick of this world just like me, please fucking join me, is I'm going to create.
I'm going to create whatever the hell I can. I'm going to show that I'm not a clone, I'm a fuck up.
Express yourselves in whatever way you want. Draw, write, hell, dress in something that's different.
We are different. We're trapped in a world that forbids change.
But we're going to do whatever we can to change that.
I'm in a band called little miss deadly. We focus on showing it's okay to be different.
Because nothing is more deadly than something you can't control.
Have fun deadlies. Be different.
It's all we've got left to live for now anyways.
- Sydney
