Down and down and down I fall
On my hands and knees I crawl
I know what's coming, I know, I bet
I know who's going to leave me next
But there's no fight
None at all
The texts just stop
So still I crawl
My messages fail
And yours must have too
I was so afraid of losing you
But months past by
How time flies
And messages still
Couldn't get by
All of mine failed
And then I thought
"Maybe it was an accident,
Maybe they forgot"
I said good morning
I said goodnight
A time when I thought
There was reason to fight
Never a reply except that message on my screen:
Your messege can not be sent. Try again. Delete?
1, 2, 3, 4
Constantly throwing the phone to the floor
Those days and weeks and months passed by
With me waiting for your reply
But it never came.
It still has not
And I swear I gave it all I got
But those messages with no reply
Hurt me, broke me day and night
On valentine's I lay sick
With a fever and headache the meds couldn't fix
So I texted you, "I need you, please?"
"This message can't be sent. Try again. Delete?"
You didn't need to answer
I knew what it was
You stopped caring
And I was done
So I gave up
I deleted those texts
Those swarms of messages
That never fucking sent
And when I got better
I went back to school
Broken and crawling and
Feeling used
And there was one guy
Who saw through my smile
A friend to a brother
Who I'd known a while
And he said he'd be there
And continents away
He still keeps that promise
And he texts me every day
He moved to Europe
And you're a 10 minute drive
But he still texts me everyday
At least I know he's alive
And I'm sorry if it's hurtful
To say some of these things
But I tried to be there, I tried to call
Didn't you hear the rings?
And I do really love you
Or, I did at least
But I think I got the message
You don't want me
