Stuck - Larry Stylinson

Chapter 19

"Some of this was here before us
All of this will go after us
It never stops until we give in, give in,"

 
Louis’ POV

 “So Louis, tell me, how have you been since last?” Ms. Grimes asked once again as I sat in one of the chairs in her office. I had woken up in the garden this morning and my whole body ached and I was still tired. Maybe it wasn’t the best idea to sleep outside against a tree. I should have went inside and slept in my bed. That was probably the most sane thing to do but I hadn’t just cared yesterday, I had just been so freaking tired. I just fell asleep and now I had to pay for it.
“Good enough.” I answered and she wrote something down on her pad. I rolled my eyes at her, I said two word and she had to write something down. What did she even write?
“Okay, good. Now how do you feel, we’ve seen you socialize with Mr. Styles, how does that make you feel?” she asked and I thought about it for a while.
“I’m fine and are you asking how I feel about the fact that you’ve been spying on me and Harry or how I feel with being with Harry?” I asked smugly and Ms. Grimes sighed and gave me a stern look and shook her head.

***

Maybe I would have to give in, sooner or later. Maybe I needed someone in my life. But who would be that one. Who would do all he/she could to help me?  The memories of everything that happened were going to hunt me forever, even if I did something about it. The nurses were going to push the subject until I told them. My walls were going to crumble and no one would help me to fix it all. I had no one trust. But then again, maybe I had. Maybe it was just I who was to stubborn to let anyone take care of me, to see my dark sides, to know what I had done and got thrown at me. Maybe it was my own entire fault. Maybe there are a lot of people who wanted and had tried to help me and I had just ignored them, ‘cause I was scared. Maybe I had been to blind with pain and darkness to see what people were handing me.  Harry. I should trust Harry more than I did, I should let him at least try to help me.
I sighed and was just about to go shower when someone knocked on my door. I turned around and opened the door to reveal Harry standing there.
“Hello.” I said and let him in, forgetting my plan to shower.
“Hi, how was your day?” he asked and sat down on his usual spot on my bed.
“Not too bad, not too good. Yours?” I said and sat down beside him. He sighed deeply and made a frustrated sound that I couldn’t help but find extremely hot.
“I don’t know! It’s weird but I talked to Liam and we made up and then Niall showed up and we didn’t talk about what happened and just kept on like it never happen and I’m just confused!” Harry rambled and I almost felt disappointed. He was friends with Niall again. He didn’t need me he had other people in his life. But why would anyone need me? I’m not good at anything so no one will ever need me. God I was so selfish, I should be happy that Harry had his friends back.

“But that’s great though, isn’t it. I mean if you’re friends again it means that he still accepts you and is okay with the fact that you are gay.” I said and he shrugged.
“It doesn’t feel great. Well sure I’m happy he isn’t disgusted with me and so but I feel like he should apologies. Like, he told us your secret and insulted the both of us more than once. I feel like he should at least say ‘Sorry’.” Harry said and I sighed.
“Niall isn’t the type who apologies, he’s more of the type who moves on without talking about it and pretends everything is fine while he is regretting it.”
“Where you friends before it happened?” Harry asked and I snorted.
“Not friends exactly, we could talk if we had to but we never really got on so well.” I said and Harry nodded.
“You just seem to know a lot about him.” Harry explained and I shrugged.
“I guess.”
The conversation soon changed and we talked about everything and nothing until the night came and Harry left but not without giving me a hug and wishing me a good night which I returned. Hopefully I would sleep better than I did last night.

A/N: Sorry for another late update, I've been shit at writing latley and I've a hard time to concentrate but hopefully I will soon be back on track. Yeah and well thanks for reading, voting, fanning and commenting.

Lots of love

/Agnes