Stuck - Larry Stylinson

Chapter 23

Louis POV

It was a weird feeling seeing your only friend and lover slip away. It was surreal but still so freaking true. It was becoming more common for me to not see Harry than to see Harry. You’d think the last week we had together we would spend with each other but it was rather the vise verse. We were drifting apart and for some reason I didn’t really mind and my therapist was happy with it too. Everyone seemed to get eased with the fact that I was getting better, if I was. I wasn’t sure but I knew that the doctors had cut down on my daily medicine and I also knew that I didn’t get a headache just as much as before.

When it was only a day until Harry would leave we sat beside each other by the oak. He had his head on my lap and I played lazily with his curls. They were so brown and soft. I curled them between my fingers and Harry sighed deeply.

“Promise you will come and visit and that once I get out of here too we will get in touch?” I whispered and Harry sighed again and bit his lip.

“It doesn’t work like that Louis, when I’m out of here I’m out from your life and I hope it’s for good. Don’t take it the wrong way but you need to be without me. That’s the only way for you to get better. For us to get better.” I nodded slowly taking in what he said. He wanted to be gone from my life for good and somehow I wanted him gone too, in one way but in another I wanted him to stay forever but he was right. My Therapist had told me that he was right too, it would get better like this.

It was something about me and Harry that wasn’t right and I think I was coming closer and closer to it and it was so damn scary. I wanted to know the truth, I did, but I didn't want to lose my Harry. I didn't want it to end. It was like one of those great dreams you could have and you could feel reality gripping you and dragging you up from the dream. You could feel the safeness from the dream slipping and the reality coming closer and closer.

I sighed deeply and hugged Harry tightly, like he would disappear if I let go. But then again, maybe he would. Maybe he would just slip away from my grip and leave me alone. But maybe I wasn’t alone, maybe there were people out there who cared maybe I should just let go and face it all. Stop the running and for once just stand up and take everything I can take and more.

Maybe it was time.

***

Harry was gone and so was all evidence that he had been here. Niall and Liam were also gone but in another way. Niall disappear close after Harry and Liam was there every now and then but we didn’t talk. At all. I didn’t miss Harry as much as I had thought I would because I thought I had finally understood it.

I had finally understood all of the shit that has gone down in my life and all the things that happened. It had been cleared and now when I knew the full truth I was not so confused longer. Sure, it was scary to hear that all I had ever believed in had been a lie but it was a relief also. It was a relief to understand why things had been as they had and how it had come to be so.

I was getting better and the doctors and my Therapist were happy with the change in me, they could hold a real and understandable conversation with me and didn't have to ask me so many questions ‘cause now they got everything I was talking about.

Even if I was getting better I was still going almost daily to Ms. Grimes but from now on I was just telling the truth and I was telling her everything that was worth to know. Who I had talked to, why I had and so on. I was also still taking my medicine and using it how I should. Even though I was not taking as much medicine as I did for a few months ago.

I wassoon graduating school and the staff would only keep me here for at least a half year but if everything keeps going smooth I wouldbe able to leave then and start my real life. Without lies and confusions. A real life.

A/N: The last chapter of Stuck! Oh gosh. Right now the most of you are probably a bit (or a lot) confused, which is great. Haha, everything will get cleared up in the Epilogue and I think you might be happy with the ending, maybe. I'm happy with it at least.

Lots of love

/Agnes :)