Reason to Live and Die (ft. AlyDen)

Chapter 15

--Den's Pov--

I just woke up, sweating, panting, and my heart's beating off my chest really fast. I swallowed, reached for my phone and dialed my friend's number.

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"Fille?Uhm... did I wake you up?... I'm sorry..." I firstly apologized.

-"No...I just woke up too. What's up? It's unusual that you're calling me this early." Fille said.

I swallowed, still trying to calm my chest down.

"Well, do you have some free time later? I think I'm really losing my mind Fille... Can I come to your clinic later? I think I need some doctor for what's happening to me right now..." I said.

-"Wait. What's happening to you? Now I'm worried. Ok, meet me at my clinic at 9am ok? Be safe." She said.

"Uhm... Ok. Sige, thanks Fille. I'll meet you later. Bye."

And I ended the call.

I put my phone down and buried my face on my palms. Damn it. I can feel the wetness down between my thighs again. Damn it. That dream again... it has been the same dream since you left Ly. Damn it.

I headed into the bathroom for a shower. I need to clean up.

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I'm on my way to Fille's clinic. God, I'm hungry. And then I remembered Alyssa again. She would always remind me to eat my breakfast every morning.

She said, "Go back to your normal life". Well, obviously, how can I even live my normal life when she's a part of it and she's acting all MIA. She's been inside my head for days...no, scratch that, for weeks. I'm worried as hell. How can I get my normal life back when a big part of it is gone and nowhere to be found?

By the way, I'm driving 'Mich' right now. Damn it. Remembering things about her makes me want to cry. Weeks have passed since that moron left some of her stuffs in my house. She left 'Mich' in front of my house and she left her stupid bowl of happiness in my friggin bedside table. It has been weeks since Alyssa left. I haven't got any call or message from her. I tried contacting her for like a whole week but I failed. She's an idiot. Damn it. I hissed, frustrated as hell. I just... badly miss her. I miss Alyssa.My stupid Alyssa.

I arrived at Fille's clinic earlier than what we have agreed. She's not yet in her clinic so her secretary, Myla, just let me inside her office so I can comfortably wait for her.

Dr. FilleCainglet. Alyssa was supposed to meet her. She's a psychiatrist. I've known her since we were young. Our families are like business friends. Well, of all my childhood friends, she's the one that I'm most comfortable with. I see her as my sweet and caring big sister. We click.

Minutes later, she arrived.

"Den!Grabe! Anobang nangyayarisayo ha? At kailanganmoakongi-meet?" she worriedly said while checking me. She give me a quickly tight hug. "Look how stressed your eyes are.Eye bags.Dark eye bags."

"Uhm... Ok. I'll do the story telling later. But first, did you bring any food? Hihi. God I'm starving!" I said. Because I'm really starving as hell.

"God!Dennisenaman eh! Hindi kabakumain ng breakfast mo? Tsk! You know what? You really need to get married na para may mag-aalaganasayo. Here, you can eat my supposed to be lunch na lang. I'll let my secretary buy me lunchnalang later." She said and handed me her food.