In My Eyes [Vkook]

No...Tae

Jungkook POV-

I quietly walked through the halls of school at lunch, drnking banana milk. The memory of confessing my love for Tae to my bother ran through my head. I instinctively touched the spot where Tae left the hickey. A smile smile crept on my face, I had to use my mothers makeup to hide it today. I sighed and let my hand fall to my side. Tae hasn't talked to me much today. He seemed depressed about something. He's mainly been with Yeri today. It made me sad that he didn't wanna hang out with me. I sighed and tossed the empty bottle. Suddenly I was pushed into a wall. I grunted when my back hit the wall. I looked at the person in front of me, it was Yeri. I growled and pushed her off.

"Don't touch me" I growled and picked up my bag.

"I wanna touch you all over" she pressed her body against mine and gripped my wrists and pinned them down. I frowned at her. She smirked when she saw the hickey on my neck. She moved her right hand and poked it. I winced softly.

"Who gave you that hickey Jungkook?" She asked innocently. I shook my head.

"None of your damn business" I wiggled my wrists to get free, but she was so damn strong. She it her bottom lip seductively and kissed my chin. I jerked my head the opposite way.

"Don't touch me!" I growled again.

"Don't be like that Kookie" she purred into my ear. I got chills over my body. I wiggled more, she pressed her body flat against mine.

"You aren't allowed to call me that!" I pushed my body against hers. She smirked, her chest was pressed flat against my chest. Her breast popped up through the top of her opened shirt, I closed my eyes and turned my head. She chuckled.

"Like what you see?" She kissed my neck.

No I don't! Now let me go you demon! I squirmed even more. She growled, she pressed me against the wall harder. I turned and looked at her. She just smiled innocently.

"Let me go Yeri!" I lifted my wrists and shoved her away. She stumbled back, but caught herself before she fell. What was her sudden interest in me? I had no clue but I didn't like it at all. I couldn't help but feel like there was an evil scheme plotted against me. I reached down and grabbed my bag once more.

"Jungkook" she said sternly. I looked up and glared at her. She smiled and crossed her arms, she leaned her back against the wall.

"Unless you want Tae finding out about your crush on him, I suggest you kiss me. Right now" Her voice was stern and serious. My heart thumped against my chest. What sick trick was she trying to pull on me? She smirked at me, she walked over to me, making her hips wave around. I watched her blankly as she walked over to me. She grabbed the collar of my dress shirt and pulled me close to her face. I smelt her intoxicating perfume, it made my nose crinkle. She bit her lip and kissed my bottom lip before kissing me slowly. I stayed frozen in place. Tae, I don't want this I'm sorry. She tried to kiss me deeper. I refused to move my lips.

 A large and hard impact suddenly hit my cheek, I stumbled and fell to the floor. I held my cheek, I looked up, my heart shattered when I saw Tae. Yeri was standing next to him like a scared puppy. Tae turned to me, I quickly looked away. I heard quiet sobs from his throat. 

"How could you Kookie?! I thought you were my friend?!" Tae shouted. I cowarded back and used the wall to help me stand. I rubbed my cheek, the stinging pain still present. I looked up at Tae with sad eyes, hoping he would see that I didn't want what just happened.

"It wasn't like that Tae.."I said softly, too scared to make my voice any higher. 

"What was it like then?!" Tae screamed, his voice echoed through the empty hall way. I closed my eyes and stepped back, I hated myself that I let Yeri do that. I even hated myself more that I never told Tae my true feelings. If I had, maybe today wouldn't have happened.

"C'mon Tae, let's go" Yeri said and dragged Tae down the hall. No..please..Tae, you can't leave me. I need you. The hate bubbled in my stomach and spread over my body. The tears streamed down my face as I ran away. 

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I ransacked my room looking for some way to stop my pain. Drawing and music didn't help, it just gave me more room to think, my thoughts were all the same; Tae. I threw around everything in my room. I found a small razor in my desk, I mainly used it for creases in my drawings. I poked the tip with my finger. I went to the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I sat on the floor and pressed my back to the tub. I removed my sweater, I pressed the sharp piece of metal to my left wrist and slid it the right. I winced from the pain, but I sighed in relief. I watched the crimson colored liquid leak from my pale arm. I cut my arms until my skin was covered with blood. The pain distracted me for awhile, until I remembered why I started. 

The tears rolled down my cheeks again, I hid my face in my hands. You're such a crybaby..no wonder Tae doesn't love you. I cried harder. I didn't know the feeling i had, but I didn't like it. I rinsed the blood from my wrists. I whined from the stinging pain, I slipped my sweater back on. I returned to my room, feeling like a zombie. I laid in my bed in pitch darkness.

Tae, you can't leave me, you're my only friend