In My Eyes [Vkook]

The Call

Tae POV- 

"Kookie? What's wrong?" I said quietly and cupped Kookie's cheeks gently. Kookie continued to cry, I pulled him into a tight embrace and rubbed his back. He hugged me back weakly and cried into my shoulder. 

"We don't have to if you really don't want to" I whispered into his ear. He shook his head, he slowly pulled away and looked at me. His eyes were red and puffy, I bit my bottom lip and kissed his nose gently. He smiled softly. 

"Its not because I don't want to, cause I do.." He looked down at his hands and fumbled his fingers. He does that when he's nervous..

"Then what is it Kookie?" 

"I can't tell you.."

"Why not? I thought we were close.." I let my hands fall down to my sides.

"We are..I just don't want you to be mad" He looked away from his hands and looked at the wall. I sighed and pulled him in for another hug. He hugged me back tightly. I laid back on the bed and held onto him as we laid there. I played with his hair till we both fell asleep. 

***

My phone continuously buzzed in my pocket, waking me from my peaceful slumber. I groaned and pulled my phone out and answered, not looking at who the caller was. 

"Hello?" I yawned and rubbed my eye. 

"You have some nerve" The person said. I frowned and sat up a little. 

"Huh?" 

"Don't act stupid. You hurt Jungkook wayyy too much"

"Is this Jimin?" I frowned and sat up completely. 

"Yes dumbass" He growled. I frowned even more. How the hell did he even get my number? 

"How'd you get my number?" I questioned

"I have ways.." he sounded proud of himself. I rolled my eyes. Most likely took it from Kookie. 

"Anyway, what do you want?" I said blankly, getting bored of this conversation. He growled quietly. 

"I'm here to tell you what you did to Jungkook" 

"I didn't do anything to him" I brushed my hair out of my face and looked down at Kookie. 

"Oh really? Lift up his sweater sleeves"

"Um...why exactly?" I raised an eyebrow. Jimin groaned.

"Just do what I say" He grumbled. I rolled my eyes and leaned over to Jungkook and lifted up his sweater sleeves. I gasped lightly when I saw Kookie's arms. Tons of white and red lines covered them in any and every direction possible. I covered my mouth and held back my tears. I-I caused this?! 

"Thats not even all of them. He even has some on his torso and legs" Jimin said through the phone. A single tear ran down my cheek and fell off my jawline. I didn't know i hurt him so much to push him to this! 

"I-I-I" I stuttered to speak. 

"Feel terrible?" Jimins voice sounded smug. 

"Y-Yes" I started to cry softly. Kookie shifted positions and smacked his lips before going back to sleep. 

"Thinking you should leave?" Jimin asked

"Yes.." I stood up from the bed and looked down at Kookie. Jimin ended the call, I put my phone back in my pocket and grabbed my bag. I leaned down to Kookie and pecked his lips.

"I'm so sorry.." I walked out of the room and left his house. 

Kookie POV- 

"Tae...cuddle me..It's cold" I rolled to hug Tae, but the spot was empty. I frowned and opened my eyes, Tae wasn't next to me. Or in my room for that matter. I picked up my phone. 

Hey...where are you?  I texted him. I waited a bit for a reply, but nothing. 

Tae? I'm sorry I didn't want to..please don't be mad. 

No response 

Tae...I'm sorry just give me a few days...

No response 

:( tae..please don't do this again... 

No response. I sat my phone aside and held back the tears. Please don't tell me he got back together with Yeri. I sat in my bed and hugged my knees tightly. My hand twitched, I wanted to be numb. I didn't wanna feel anymore. I stood and walked over to my trash can and pulled out the razor. I locked my bedroom door and sat in the middle of my bedroom floor. I removed my sweater, and slid the razor through my skin. 

A few days later~

I've gotten completely worse since that day. I've completely shut down, I won't speak to anyone. Not even my own family. Jung Hyun tries to talk to me but I just shut him out. I am barely going to school, I'll walk out and go to my window and climb in. I'll just sleep all day or cut myself more. I've even resorted to burning myself. I had a lighter and I got curious, it makes even more pain go away. And I like it. I see Tae at school and he acts distant, like he doesn't even know me. Doesn't he know that I'm just getting worse the longer he's gone?

Apparently not, Its Tae; he's constantly clueless. 

I sat in my bedroom quietly, flicking my lighter on and off; over and over. I flicked it on and placed the flame on my wrist, over a fresh cut. I winced at the pain, then sighed in relief and flicked it off. I watched my skin turn red and irritated. I dropped the lighter and laid back onto my bed. I stared at my snow whit colored ceiling. My arms and torso still tingling lightly from the cuts and burns I did today. I checked the time, it was barely 11. I sighed and closed my eyes. Lets take a nap.  I rolled onto my side and hugged a pillow tightly. 

Tae POV- 

I read through the messages Kookie had sent me that day. I wanted to respond so bad, but if I did I could just hurt him more. A new message popped up, my heart stopped.

I know you aren't gonna respond

But this is the closest I'm gonna get from now on

What ever I did...I'm sorry

I didn't mean it..I was just scared.. 

I don't want you to be mad.. 

I'm sorry for bugging you...

I'll just go

Bye.. sorry again.. 

No...Kookie...please don't stop messaging me. I miss you...He didn't text me back.