Love | R.L. (R5)

Chapter 18 -The Turning Point-

I stood in the kitchen with a knife in my hand. I hate my life I thought as I looked at the sharp blade, I just want it to end. I slowly lifted the blade to my wrist and took a deep breath before I started to cut down deep into it. What am I doing I thought as I quickly pulled the knife away but it was too late. Blood was flowing from my wrist like a river. I dropped the knife and wrapped my hand around the cut.  What am I thinking! I don’t want to die! “Riker!” I screamed. I had my hand wrapped around my wrist but blood was oozing around it. “Riker!” I screamed again “Rydel!” Moments later I saw Riker rush into the room and look at me.

“What happened!” he asked as he ran to my side. He looked at my wrist and slowly peeled my hand away to reveal the open cut. “Alex, what did you do?” he asked as he reached over and grabbed a towel then put it on the cut.

“I... I don’t know” I struggled out. I felt myself getting extremely dizzy and looked down to see blood had soaked the towel. I knew I couldn’t hold up much longer and I let myself fall back.

“ALEX!” I heard Riker yell and I felt him catch me. “Rydel! Call the ambulance!” was the last thing I heard before everything went black.

“Alex?” I heard my name being faintly called by an unidentified voice. Slowly, I opened my eyes to see a lady standing beside me. “Good, you're awake. How are you feeling?” she asked with a smile.

“Alright I suppose” I answered “Where am I? What happened?” I rubbed my eyes with my hand and noticed an IV was in it.

“Don’t you remember what happened, you're at the hospital” I heard a familiar voice say beside me. I looked over to see Riker sitting in a chair. He smiled at me but it didn’t last long. “How is she?” he then asked looking up at the lady.

“She’ll be fine now” she responded “but we’re going to keep her here overnight.” And with that she turned and left the room.

“So what happened again?” I asked looking back at Riker.

“You don’t remember?” he asked and I shook my head. “Alex, you tried to kill yourself” he whispered. I stared at him for a moment then lifted my other hand to see a white cloth wrapped around my wrist.

“I... did?” I asked and he nodded. I sighed and felt a tear start to form in my eye. “What is wrong with me.”

“Oh Alex nothing is wrong with you” he reached over and grabbed my hand but I pulled away from him.

“Riker I’m sorry I just couldn’t take it anymore. It seems that whenever I get attached to someone there pulled away from me.”

“Alex not everyone has left I’m...”

“Yes Riker they have. My dad, my mom, and now Ross.” I said cutting him off. He looked at me for a moment and I could tell he was hurt. It wasn’t that I didn’t care about him I just never told him about how I like Ross.

“Well I’m glad I know how you feel!” he suddenly said and I could detect anger in his voice. He then stood up and started to walk towards the door.

“Riker you don’t understand” I said trying to get him to come back

He turned around to face me. “You know, I think I do!” he shouted before turning back and exiting the room, slamming the door behind him. I kept staring at the door. What was that about I thought.

Suddenly the door opened. "What's up with him?" Rocky asked as he walked in "he seems pissed."

"I wish I could tell you but I seriously don't know" I responded as he came over and sat in the chair Riker had left.

"You know I've never seen him this mad before, can’t lie but it kinda freaks me out." I smiled and closed my eyes. “So how are you feeling anyway?” Rocky asked.

I opened my eyes again and looked at him “I don’t know, alright I guess.” Moments later door open to reveal Rydel. Her cheeks were stained with tears and she looked tearable. She looked up right at me and I saw anger come to her eyes.

"What the hell were you thinking!" she screamed as she started to march across the room "why would you try to kill yourself!?" I noticed her hands turn into fists and Rocky quickly got up and stood in front of her.

"Calm down, Rydel" he said.

"Don't tell me what to do!"she screamed at him before looking back at me.  "What could you have possibly thought killing yourself would do! It would have done nothing that's what. This isn't Romeo & Juliet so don't turn it into that!" and with that she turned and stormed out of the room.

"I'm sorry Alex, she's..."

"No Rocky, she's right. I don't know what I was thinking.... I'm sorry." I said cutting him off. The room went quiet and I closed my eyes.

"One thing doesn't add up " Rocky suddenly said "why did she say this isn't Romeo & Juliet?"