Save me? // 5sos

2.6

-Calum-

[Tuesday - 4:31pm]

"Wait! Wait! What happened with Jade?!" I yell into the phone at Brianna. I can't understand what she's saying because she's crying hysterically. Brianna was acting weird at school today and I couldn't find Jade anywhere today. Something bad has happened. Brianna said she was going to call me after school but that was the only thing she said to me for the whole day.

"Sorry! Sorry, J-Jade had an episode last night and she attacked her body again!"

No... b-but she promised me... She told me that she was safe! She was finally happy. My heart aches and the thought of my girl doing this to herself again. Destroying her perfect skin as she fights a war in her head with all these negative thoughts.

I drop my phone, eyes burning at the news. She couldn't have.

I hear Brianna calling out to me by the little device on the floor that I dropped, but I can barely register anything right now. My ears are ringing and my eyes are burning, but all I can feel is numbness. My hands don't feel like they're there and my legs barely keep my standing up. My eyes are wide and I can hear my heart in my ears. Pounding. Rapidly.

I bend down and pick up the phone.

"I have to call you back." I squeak to Brianna. I end the call and run into my room. I close the door behind me and I just stand. I feel disconnected from the world. Like nothing can disrupt me.

I can't believe what I heard. It's not true. I t just can't be. She was finally fucking happy. She told me she was better. I don't know what to feel, betrayed... angered... destroyed... simply sad.

I feel so attached to Jade, and she acted the same to me. She's my first love. Probably my only. I told her I loved her, she said it back. I thought I had finally saved her. I guess not. I feel like a failure, I failed to keep her safe and I failed to make her happy and keep her protected.

I sit on the edge of my bed and look down into my lap. My lovey hurting, hurts me more. I need to see her. I need to make sure that my angel just hasn't left earth just yet. My blurry vision focuses on my phone. I unlock my phone and I just stare at my lock-screen. Guess who it is?

It's Jade. Hah, surprise.

It's a photo I sneakily took of her when we went on our little rendezvous 2 days ago. Where I had finally made up with her. She's sitting on the swings with a cheeky smile on her face. Her long black hair is flowing in the wind and her bright smile on her gorgeous little face. I smile pathetically at the lock screen then I actually unlock it.

I go straight into my contacts and I scroll. I find her name: Jade <3.

I press the little phone, signalling that I want to call her. The familiar screen shows and I hold my phone up to my ears. The ringing tone sends me crazy, I wait. She doesn't pick up.

I sigh loudly then collapse onto my bed. I didn't even realise I was crying. I've just been numb.

My phone starts blaring out Jade's favourite song, Forgotten Souls by Our Last Night and I scramble to pick up my phone.

"H-Hello?" I ask. I sniffle and wipe my eyes with my hand that is un-occupied.

"D-Do you think I'm beautiful?" She cries... my eyes widen at her words. I'm shocked... her angelic voice being possessed by sadness and worry, a sound I wish to never hear.

What happened?

-Luke-

[Tuesday - 5:14pm]