Save me? // 5sos

2.3

-Jade-

I run home, my heart beating louder and louder as I take each step. My fitness levels have been increasing so much in the past month. My childhood did consist of being athletic and sporty, and I guess that's where it came from.

My tears dry in the breeze while I run. I reach my front door and I fumble my keys a few times before I actually get inside. I open the door and I run to the bathroom.

How could Calum do this to me?

You're not good enough for his love, that's why.

I'm not good enough for anyone anymore.

Yeah, you aren't. Everyone would be better off without you to be honest.

Would they?

I look in the mirror and I get filled with anger. Me. I am the one who did this to myself. My blood boils in anger and I notice it in the mirror. I snap.

I punch the mirror, sending hundreds of little tiny cracks, and big cracks through it. Pieces of glass fall to the floor and land on my feet and infront if them.

I bend down and pick up the biggest shard.

Look at its beautiful sharp edges, it's prettier than you.

I do as the voice says and I drag my index finger softly along the sharp edges. The burning desire to just drag it across my thighs or stomach is there and growing stronger as the voice whispers in my head.

Calum doesn't love you... You weren't good enough for him, that's why he went behind your back.

Then why did he kiss me one last time?

So he could try to make you believe that his act wasn't fake.

I fully grasp the glass shard in my palm, gaining some cuts on the inside of my hand from the sharp edges. I lay the piece of glass flat against my thighs and softly drag it back and forth.

Why don't you do it?

Because.

Why?! Huh? You would be better off doing that.

No!

I throw the piece of glass across the bathroom and I bring my knees up and I rest my forehead on them.

My body takes over and crawls over towards the big piece of glass again.

"JADE!" He bursts through the door and kicks the pieces of glass away from my grasp. I cry. I've been caught. He's ashamed of me.

"Go away Jack." I mumble. I curl up into a ball again and I hear him stepping towards me.

He picks me up without hesitance and carries to my bedroom. He tries to put me down, but I don't want to let go just yet. I don't want to lose another person.
He gets the idea and sits down with me. He wraps his arms around my waist and I hug him tighter.

We stay like that for a while, my sobs filling the air as he hugs me in comfort.

"Stay here Jade, I'll be back, I promise." He tells me after a while. My sobs have died down, but some still escape my chapped lips. I nod and i hesitantly let go of him. He looks back at me once before he leaves the room and as soon as he leaves, I wrap my arms around my pillow.

He comes back after a few minutes and he sits down on the bed.

"Jay," he whispers. My sobs come back just at the sound of my old nickname.
I look up and I see fear and worry in his eyes.